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29 June 2005 ♥
ok.. my coms down.. spoil le.. i dunno wad happen uh.. ok.. nw at lu bin hse.. nv go to sch.. so sian.. sch is always e same.. ok.. with frenz with jasmine.. i can say its a very special feeling.. i dunno how 2 put it.. but yr will understand when yr r in my plight.. ok.. she is not as bad as i think.. in a relationship theres bound to be conflicts n quarrels de.. as in.. sky is my fren.. jas also my fren.. i hear their prob some i hear le i wanna luff eh..ok.. bot my new fone le.. so damn happy.. im serious this time .. i will use this fone for long uh.. mon met up with tortoise they all le.. catch up wif them in sch.. my class is just one class away frm 4E.. great! i can talk to them whenever i wan.. ok.. tomorrow goin counselllin.. mitin yuki.. ok.. tata~
you are the only reason for my precious smile ♥
25 June 2005 ♥
ok.. i admit i still love u..my feelings for u r still there..
you are the only reason for my precious smile ♥
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ok..nw at katong with jasmine n yukj.. meet jasmine lst.. at our hse de bus stop.. den aft tat yuki came along. . she gave mi a ebase top... also dunno can wear nt uh.. ok.. ytd suppose to go counsellin de.. end up goin ps with yuki.. wed go my aunt hse.. so damn sian uh.. ok.. guess wad? b4 goin to my aunt hse..went to airport with my couz.. den i saw rhys uh.. eeeeeee.. den i nowhere to siam.. cuz he walkin towards mi.. ok.. den bo bian talk to him a while.. den mi n my couz faster siam le. ok.. bot a perfume.. i think its escada?? ok.. at least i nv go hm empty handed..ok.. den go my aunt hse lor.. so so so sian uh.. ok wadever.. guys r all jerks uh.. ok.. jasmine bf.. yr noe who la.. treat her so damn bad..if its mi when m together with him.. i wun let him treat mi this way de uh..ok anw.. its none of my business la.. i also cnt do anything..ok..
Esp for rhys: ok.. rhys ah.. i think theres smth u have to noe.. u dun kip thinkin i got think of u leh..u r so annoying.. ohoh.. i noe le.. cuz tat time when i lst stead with u den i think of my ex den nw i brk with u le u think tat i will think of u also ah.. pls my ass la.. look at e way u treat mi.. if tat day i nv run out of ur hse i think i would not have survive.. at leats none of my ex would lay their hands on mi.. u say u wanna patch? patch for wad? for u to beat mi whenever u like.. n hor.. i dun like sky le lor.. u dun keep anyhow think la.. its outa ur concern anyway.. ok.. u just fuck off frm my life.. i wun give u a chance to fuck or beat mi agn..
you are the only reason for my precious smile ♥
22 June 2005 ♥
ok..today slack at hm e whole damn day.. com finally ok.. rite aft i msg dinez..ok.. was readin my testi readin ppls blog n writin testi for my darlings.. yuki n mel.. ok.. tml goin out with mel agn.. i suppose it will b e last time i go out in this week.. its sch time agn very soon.. dad says its better to stay at hm.. prepare for the coming term.. n yes.. i wanna work hard.. darlings dun laugh.. i really wanna wrk hard uh.. ok.. sometimes i really wanna get out of mjr.. like wad yuki says.. steppin into mjr its like steppin onto my past.. so many happy n sad memories.. of cuz it is e sad memories tat i dun wanna even rmb.. actually when m in pri 6.. postin day.. how i wish i cld get rid of sky.. as in so many things happen in pri 6 btw mi n him.. n i wanna go to a new sec sch n start a new life.. this is really wad i think.. but.. i end up in e same sec sch as him.. ok.. den we patch.. den he make mi sad agn.. wth!! den so many things happen in 2003 & 2004.. but everythings come to an end eventually.. its all over.. we r frenz agn.. the feellin is special.. ok.. but..the very thing tat im proud to be in mjr.. i made so many wonderful frenz.. im proud of my frenz.. i love them.. they r the only ones i feel worth comin to this sch.. cuz i noe them..aft this yr.. everything will change.. we will b seperated.. i noe no matter how she bu de i feel.. they also have to go.. i jus hope tat they wun forget mi n they will lead a carefree life like when they r in mjr.. ok.. i love u my frenz..
you are the only reason for my precious smile ♥
21 June 2005 ♥
ok..nw at mel hse.. actually wanted go out de.. but aft tat decide to come her hse pei her chat lor.. den rch her hse a while go pass my fone my 7200 to gerald.. he is so damn nice lor.. come all e way here just 2 help mi sell fone.. he is a gd guy lai de.. dun let him go hor gals.. ok.. cuz i dun like my 7200 leh.. dun like e design aft buyin n it has got a mere prob.. ok.. i wanted to buy 7260.. but i still cnt decide on wad colour to get..ping pong kip call mi buy cuz she buyin 7270 uh.. den same range as her lo.. anw.. i like e fone alot also..ok... den went parkway pei mel buy her anna sui foundation sponge.. sat went out with rikku n yuki.. each bot a top frm ebase.. ok.. its like.. one mth nv contact e bitch le leh.. its like.. no sms.. no whatsoever.. dunno wad e hell happen to her.. mayb get beaten by ppl cuz she is so so so xl.. ok.. wadever.. update another day.. gonna chat with my mel le..tata~
you are the only reason for my precious smile ♥
18 June 2005 ♥
Ok..i finally bot my fone!!! Was so happy at e lst sight of it.. GSS is just so grt..it provides midnight shopping..which is such a advantages when I wanna squeeze all e money outa my mum.. meetin yuki & rikku.. eski bar at boat quay rite darlings?? Ok.. im looking forward.. cant wait to go for my shoppin spree..
[& oh.. she kip emphasizing shes a spendthrift but she dun have e money for her to be one.. Omg..so y r u tryin so hard to convince my gals tat u r a spendthrift so tat dey can tell mi U HAVE E MONEY TO BE A LST CLASS SPENDTHRIFT!!wad r u tryin to prove man?? Or u can just flash ur notes in front of mi n I will definitely believe u.. wad a joke.. go n check it out who has more money n allowance b4 u wanna disgrace urself to us agn..let mi tell u smth out of my SYMPATHY ok?? Last sat,ur bf was seen touchin another gal in town.. cineleisure,rocky master.. at abt noon..specific enough?? Another tym was at junction 8.holding hands with yet another gal.. OMG!! My poor gal.. I tot u claims tat he love u a lot?? N tat he live in bukit batok he wun go these areas? But he is seen there leh.. by my informants.. so wad can u say?? Go hm n tc of ur bf la ok.. b4 u actually come n hao lian to us e amount of money u have..]
you are the only reason for my precious smile ♥
15 June 2005 ♥
otsWo.. im so damn tired nw.. bt I will wait.. I wanna watch e repeat version de yuan lai jiu shi ni.. I wanna see e I not stupid de wen fu.. he so handsome..drools.. ok.. I wanna see him.. just wait n wait.. im so tired le.. yawn till my jaws droppin le.. ok nvm.. aaarrrgghh.. tml im going for counsellin agn.. every week.. sian uh.. ms ong call mi to draw family tree.. wah piang.. my family is so damn big.. draw till when.. ok.. just nw heard a shocking frm crystal.. I cnt say here la..my ear hurt so much... I think I too gei kiang le.. go pierce tat freakin position.. so damn fuckin pain hur..i turn turn turn e stud den appy alcohol also lidat.. wadever.. ok.. just nw my fren told mi smth.. so damn meaningful.. [dun hurt e one tat u love,u will definitely regret it for life].. ok.. the show start le..tata..sumtyms things cnt b force la.. ok.. I really have 2 go le.. bye!!
you are the only reason for my precious smile ♥
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Ok.. today went junction 8 with couz.. I was lyk.. nv go there b4.. ok.. Its beautiful there.. shop n shop.. bot a pair of earrings and one jeans.. den I saw rhys there .. with nyx.. I wanna call nyx de.. but later rhys will see mi.. so I faster siam.. ok.. wondering wad e two of them is doin there.. ok.. went hm.. take cab.. was so tired..den at night.. have sum kinda sort of quarrel with darling yuki.. ok.. we r both impulsive n attitude.. but.. save all those attitude for other ppl.. we r both at fault.. sry anw.. ok.. so long nv chat with tortoise le leh.. dunno whats he fucking bz with nowadays.. call him nv call back la.. see la… he lidat agn.. im gonna go fan him agn.. ok.. dunno aft he graduate will contact mi not.. I wish he will.. I want him to.. cuz he is my best buddy.. he is e best person I can relied on n trust.. he will tc of mi when I need help.. I jus love him so much.. I rmb when m steading with sky.. I listen to tortoise more den I listen to him.. lol..this cause him to be freakin angry.. so we quarrelled.. ok.. let mi disclose some interesting facts when m steading with sky.. I was always arguing my way out with him.. cuz at tat point of time im using prepaid.. den there was once tortoise called mi and chat.. and he called my fone.. den he told mi to use my hse fone to call him cuz kinda ex.. den I ok immediately.. but whenever sky told mi to do so.. I will just argue with him n tell him I dun wan.. he just got freakin angry.. den he came to noe abt this thingy.. he scolded mi n kpkb.. say I listen to tortoise more den him.. who is ur bf?? U listen to him more den mi.. den who am I to u?.. wahha.. ok.. I dunno y im lidat.. I still told him its impossible to gif up tortoise cuz of anything.. ok.. looking back everything.. it just seems so funny.. it just shows how unreasonable I am.. ok.. I cant help it.. tortoise noe he meant a lot to mi.. he noe I care for him.. yuki told mi my closeness with him nobody can understand.. cuz we just so close… ok.. wadever.. im happy to hear tat also..
you are the only reason for my precious smile ♥
14 June 2005 ♥
Ok..went ps on sat with yuki & rikku.. bot a top & pierce my ear.. I dunno what tat position is called la.. but I noe is my ear lor.. ok.. met up with yuki fren.. two guys.. well..i dunno wad to say abt them .. dunno dem well.. ok.. den sun stayed at hm.. went to but dog food with ping pong.. ok.. she told mi I can take black very well.. ok.. fantastic..black is my fav colour.. den I saw crystal on street.. she was with another guy..im nt sure whether she broke with alex le nt leh.. I dun dare 2 ask alex.. but aiya.. dun care abt them la.. later I get myself into trouble uh.. ok.. when can I get my fone??
you are the only reason for my precious smile ♥
10 June 2005 ♥
Ok..today went to e counsellin session..my appointment was lyk 3pm.. ok.. den I rch there super punctual lor.. 3 on e dot.. but my counseller.. as in ms Joanna ong.. ok.. if I tell tortoise n my boys abt my counseller name.. dey will luff lyk theres no tml.. cuz..well.. I dun have to say rite?ok..anw.. I wait for her till 3.25pm.. den she talk to mi.. ask mi abt sch family.. she was quite nice though.. jus tat her sense of dressin is kinda… blah blah blah.. ok.. den actually im suppose to go for the mime de.. which is directly opp their office.. have got dance,soccer,rap,mime.. etc.. ok.. I told ms ong I have spilt headache.. but she still call mi to go.. which is for a while.. ok den I go lor.. go n see e dance.. the gals there were cool.. as in when they dance… the dance steps were nice.. I spotted a cute gal.. she was very cute.. ok.. anw.. im nt a guy.. ok wadever.. den I was standin there watchin n suddenly two super XL gal appear frm nowhere.. they were lyk keep starin at mi.. wanna bully mi cuz im new hur??!! Den I turn my body n let them have a look at e wonderful art piece on my arm.. den they turn away immediately.. im nt actin or wad lor.. but these gals reali deserve sum punishment.. ok.. aft tat go home.. take cab..
Ok..2nd part of my bloggy.. I seems to love my family more n more.. cherish my family more n more.. my dad of cuz.. my cousins.. my aunts n uncles..these were e ppl who acc mi grw up.. I love them more n more.. few of my frenz can spend so much time with their relatives tat often.. all e more I noe I shld cherish e ties I have with them.. they r e ones tat I can relied on for a lifetime.. I love all of u!! Except those bitches n bastards who ruin my family yrs ago.. hell is waitin for yr..
you are the only reason for my precious smile ♥
09 June 2005 ♥
WOo~ today have had a happy day.. bot e things tat I aim.. ok.. today meet mel at her hse at lyk 1.15pm.. ok.. den headed straight to ps.. im always so happy to meet mel everytym.. we always have so much things to talk n luff abt..ok.. so happy to meet her.. den went to ebase.. bot two tops which cost mi $55.. rather cheap though.. for tops la.. den went to pasta mania.. mel treat mi eat.. cuz she owe mi a meal.. ok..den walk around for lyk 1 hr plus.. den went to chomel to see earrings.. n we were lyk spending 1 hr plus jus looking at those earrings.. can yr imagine?? We were lyk kpkb the price n etc.. but in e end I nv buy.. mel bot one pair.. its lyk ribbon kinda pattern..was quite nice.. den aft tat wana go paya lebar de.. but in e end decide to go mel hse.. go see her mom.. sit for a while den go le.. den smth very amusing happen… I was hailin cab when one of my pri sch mate called mi.. we chatted for long.. den suddenly he ask mi hows mi n my boy.. den I ask him.. who is my boy? How come I have boy I dunno.. den guess wad he say? He say.. ur boy mar.. sky lor.. as in waiyi.. I was lyk.. huh?? Den I luff for lyk 20 mintues.. his antenna was super short lor.. I was lyk.. I dunno how 2 explain la.. so funny lor..we brk for so damn long.. n there r still ppl thinking we r together.. ok.. talk of sky hor.. on our way home 2 mel hse.. I saw him on train.. at lst mi n mel say Patrick n emmerson,den saw yi han.. den ok nvm.. den guess wad? We saw sky.. my hrt pi po pi po so damn fast.. I was so damn scare leh.. I wanna find a hole n put myself inside.. n nt cuz I like him ok.. its lyk.. its norm reaction mar.. hes my ex n I nv ever expect to see him.. I dun have e xin li zhun bei leh.. den he suddenly appear in front of mi.. but he nv see mi la.. that was e heng heng heng part.. n somemore mel was shouting so loud when she saw him.. she shouted.. waiyi leh waiyi leh.. I was lyk.. shhhh.. shhh.. talk of sky hor.. I everytym see him de leh.. I was lyk.. last yr I saw him in bugis 5 times.. I think 4 times he with jasmine.. den 1 time he with Patrick,. But so what? Im not interested.. ok..wadever.. update agn..
you are the only reason for my precious smile ♥
08 June 2005 ♥
Ok..my tattoo dragon..love it so muchie..im gonna add some flames to it very soon.. My couz 3D spider tattoo.. so damn nice uh.. love it so much.. but too much i dun like spiders..but this is simply excellent.. Dine & mi,took it long ago.. but i love this pic..
you are the only reason for my precious smile ♥
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Ok..sat have a big quarrel wif a fren..its nt reali quarrelling actually..its jus smth lyk we nt happy abt each other & fought it out in smses..yes,in sms..Even if its sms..it is enough to make mi kinda agitated & moodless..ok.. she was once my best fren.. ok.. u r rite.. but u were nt my best fren anymore..i do nt want to deceive u.. so I shall tell u e truth.. mayb as u say.. there r far too many misunderstandings btw us tat can nv b solve..probably im too sensitive.. yes.. im sensitive.. or worst come to worst.. im unreasonable.. lyk wad u said..
A fren told mi a story abt [[The frog & the scorpion]] Ok.. there was a scorpion tat wanted to cross a river or lake.. wadever.. but it dunno how 2 swim.. a frog was there.. so e scorpion ask e frog *can u carry mi on ur back n bring mi across the lake?* The frog said *nono,wad if u stung mi,u r so poisonous.* & e scorpion replied *y wuld I stung u?if I do so,both of us will b dead* Upon hearing this,e frog brot e scorpion across..however.. the scorpion did stung e frog.. The frog was so angry,he asked *y did u do this to mi* The scorpion replied *Its my nature.*
Aft hearin this story,it made mi think deep.. mayb its my nature to be so unreasonable.. to b so bitchy.. sumtyms i tell myself not to do things tat I noe is wrong.. but I cnt help it.. I do feel sad abt our frenship.. I do cherish it.. but.. but.. both of us noe tat we can nv go back 2 b4.. to e days when I run to u whenever I hab probs.. e days when we spend our whole damn day talking.. the days we hang out everyday aft sch.. all these was gone.. my frenship with gals always always fail.. I dunno y.. Back den,we were so happy together.. I treat u as my precious gem..mayb u dun even noe.. but frm sec 1 till now.. u simply gif mi e feelin tat I am nt ur best fren.. im one u can do without.. I do not like this feeling.. im searching for e rite feelings all e while.. mayb im wrong to blame u for everything.. mayb I kinda lyk push all e blame to u for this failing frenship.. but I dun wanna lose a fren.. I do cherish every frenship I have..but as u say. Ours is changing.. I feel so sad to hear this.. it is definitely not e amount of tym we spend together.. back den when we were in sec 2.. when I was still with sky.. n u were with him… we hab so lil tym together.. but we can still feel e bond when we get together.. but nw.. I cnt feel it anymore.. mayb I bothered too much how much I meant to u.. mayb im too ambitious.. I wanted to b e best best fren in ur hrt.. lyk u were in my hrt.. but I noe its nt possible.. or probably I mistaken ur way of speech.. but sumhow I feel tat u r sarcastic to mi in some ways.. once I decide or conclude on smth.. I wanna hear no explanation.. seriously.. no amount of fucking explanation will help.. mayb we shld jus leave it this way.. days of best fren life were gone.. mayb we will jus continue as fren.. as u say ...wadever..
you are the only reason for my precious smile ♥
07 June 2005 ♥
Ok..today early in e morning go meet nyx,alex & crystal.. was lyk.. meet them 9am at white sands..omg!! so damn early.. I 6.30 wake up le leh. Shit uh.. den in e end I sit in front of my wardrobe for half an hr.. I cnt choose wad 2 wear.. bot many tops recently.. dunno which top 2 match..den I called crystal.. she cnt choose wad 2 wear also.. ok.. den its alrdy 7am.. sun is so bright.. n I was lyk.. haven decide wad to wear n haven make up.. den I was thinking.. I have 2 b fast.. if nt nyx n alex will bomb mi till I go deaf de… ok.. den in end.. wore e mango shirt I bot last wk n my sugarlink skirt.. by e time I bath blow hair makeup its alrdy 8.30.. omg.. im still planning to take train.. den bo bian lo.. take cab.. $11++ uh.. cuz peak hr.. ok.. den rch there.. go white sand shop n bot some accessories.. den off we go to town.. wisma.. bot a bag.. aft tat walk walk walk den went to parkway.. esprit was on sale!! Bot a skirt a strip pants n 2 tops.. gonna go bankrupt alrdy.. den aft tat go orchard tower.. we abit ironic la.. was lyk.. shld have head 2 orchard while we were in wisma mar.. but we last min den think of it de.. cuz I wanna check out e price for my future tattoo.. my added on flames.. my 3rd 3D scorpion n my tribal scorpion.. all add up to $400+.. ok.. aft I buy my new fone will go for e tattoo.. den aft tat 7.30 le.. den nyx hail cab see mi hm.. cuz alex n crystal wan go part tall mar..n btw the 2 of them r on stead.. ok.. den on cab take a nap.. cuz traffic jam leh.. I also dunno y.. peak hr I think.. den take a nap lo.. so tired.. den I dream leh.. I dream of sky..scare mi leh.. I dun wan 2 have anything 2 do with him le.. but we still frenz la.. dream of mi n him while we were in sec 2. lol.. we went east coast part tall.. wahaha.. so funny uh.. I can dream of wad happen 2 yrs ago.. ok.. den rch my hse alrdy.. the driver call mi. I still in my dreamland uh.. den ok pay money.. den im in a daze for like 1 hr uh.. keep thinking y e hell I dream of him.. probably I miss him? But no leh.. frm hol till nw I din even rmb him.. but wadever la.. hes jus a ex.. wad e hell.. den bcuz of him I think of jasmine.. they stead mar.. stead so long.. ok… give yr my blessings.. ppl reading this sure think I very fake one.. but wth! Its like.. if I still like him of cuz its very fake of mi to say this.. but pls la.. I dun love him alrdy.. jasmine is my fren.. I wun hurt her de k.. since I agree to be frenz with her I reali treat her as my fren de.. but anw.. y shld I explain 2 yr.. ok.. den nyx called.. interrupt mi.. im in deep thoughts leh.. thinking abt my memories with sky.. back den was so funny when im with him.. sometimes memories r reali beautiful.. my kor once told mi.. memories can nv ever b erase.. whenever we do smth.. we will think of a certain someone.. like when I go ecp.. I will think of sky.. I go red hill.. I will think of rhys.. I go geylang.. I will think of nyx.. lol.. he always told mi the food there very nice den always bring mi go de.. ok anw.. I wanna go bath le.. been out e whole day.. so smelly uh.. ok.. tml goin out wif mel.. looking forward.. bye..
you are the only reason for my precious smile ♥
06 June 2005 ♥
Ok..slackin at home nw.. nth to do actually.. nowhere to go.. sg is jus lidat.. almost all e place go b4 le.. but its great sg sale nw.. gonna go shop wif mel on wed.. bot 5 tops last wk..2 frm ebase.. 2 frm mango & 1 frm sugarlink.. ok.. kinda broke nw.. wanna change fone.. bot nokia 3220 2 weeks ago.. bt dun reali lyk it.. feel lyk changing.. ytd actually suppose 2 meet yuki de.. but she last min cnt make it..so I went bedok wif my couz in e evening.. bot 1 heels.. this season sg sale gonna shop lyk siao..ok.. dearie tortoise still owe mi $10..i kip pestering him 2 pay mi.. also dunno he got money nt.. actually I was joking de la.. if he no money den no money lor..but he tot I serious wan… keep wanna return mi e money..ok..wadever la.. thurs needa go counsellin.. tpy lor 1.. so sian uh.. needa go all e way there.. Ok.. den ytd at nite.. as mi n my couz were downstairs my hse.. we saw this van at e parking lot shaking.. den e 2 of us were lyk looking at each other n hehehe.. den we slowin move towards e van n listen.. there was e making love sound.. we chio ka peng.. ok.. den we went up n told my family.. my whole family almost went down n see.. but in e end nv..ok.. didn’t noe there r still so bold ppl nowadays.. ok.. update another day.. or later.. if I have e time..
you are the only reason for my precious smile ♥
04 June 2005 ♥
Ok.. the bloody cb freakin com.. I type everything n den it suddenly turned blank.. was so damn irritated.. ok.. was lyk.. so many days nv update le..ok..on sun went to park way wif mel..chat so many things.. miss her so much..spend so much,..im damn broke nw..ok.. den on tat very day smth happen 2 yuki & tortoise.. yuki fret over wad fone 2 buy.. she will be agitated n irritated easily.. so sad im nt by her side to calm her down.. if m wif her.. I will always calm her down de.. if nt she very stress wan.. ok.. den tortoise called mi wanna tok 2 mi.. den I was so damn du lan.. I ans e fone he cnt hear mi I cnt hear him.. this continue for so damn long.. I was so damn frustrated alrdy.. den aft tat he msg mi n told mi wad happen .. his fone drop on e floor n spoil.. den I seize e chance 2 criticise Samsung fone..lol.. ok.. den he told mi 2 look out for fone for him..den we chatted for quite long den aft I rch hm he call mi agn.. n we chat.. he was ok alrdy..back 2 normal.. nt so sad le.. im so happy.. cant bear 2 see him so sad lo..nw hes ok.. im happy le.. ok.. den bot so much things on tat day..spend so much money..precious moment bag-$29.90,dolphin bay-$29.90,syl album-$15.. den $20 on cab n food..im broke alrdy.. but im happy.. cuz can go out wif mel mar.. den took some pics wif her also.. will upload later..
Changi Chalet.. Ok.. the chalet wad frm 31 may – 3 may.. was so damn fun.. everybody dun feel like goin back uh..so fun eh..ok..i dun feel like writing la.. but very fun jiu shi le.. ok.. update another day..
you are the only reason for my precious smile ♥
03 June 2005 ♥
Wif mel..at yoshinoya.. Ok..taken by my couz.. look carefully..its nt e same as e previous one.. though its quite similar..