** dUn Gif Up EaSiLy On e ThIngS tat MakE u SmiLe..

2007-06-02T18:16:00.000+08:00

Was at jackson ytd,dinner with kapoh.Alamak,the facilities sucks lah.I was asking him will it collapse while we were eating.He was luffing lyk dunno wad.

Anw,chatted w agnes for 2 whole hrs just now.Her words really make mi think so hard lah.There r alot of things i do noe.I dun wanna ask cuz i alrdy knew e answer.There r things i dun wanna think,i dun feel lyk facing.I just wanna go all e way now.Just for once in my life,lst time in my life,i dun wanna think of any consequences.As long as he says it,i'll be sure tat everthing i have in worth it.U know,he nvr turns back n look for a while.There r many gals,he will nvr notice mi.I once harbour this hope of changing him,but as days went by,i noe i can nvr.Hes sucha stubborn head.He will nvr ever realise.Or perhaps he dun wanna acknowledge it.Whatever agnes says is right.Its so right.I got to think it over really carefully.

2007-05-31T20:10:00.000+08:00

Gss was crazy lah.Parkway w yeeni n xiaomei today.Met up w yeeni lst.Shop around.WAs deciding between 2 tops in topshop,dunno which to buy lah.In e end ask e fitting room guy,hes so cute la.BOt 2 of them in end.One yellow checkers skirt frm dp.So cheap la.Nice also.I lyk a top from m)phosis leh,but they were laughing n laughing lah,i look lyk an lantern loh.Yeeni went off to meet her mum.Me n xiaomei shop around,finally stop at mango.We were lyk so crazy over the t shirts lah.I bot 2 n she bot 1.Was satisfied today.Arrange to met up with her to go bugis.dunno when lah.Look forward to it.

2007-05-30T18:01:00.000+08:00

Was late for school today.I was smsing kapoh telling him i will be late n he said hes also late lah.Wanted to meet for breakfast.I cabbed down to his place n met this really irritating driver la.I was so pissed off i hop onto another cab to his hse.Breakfast time gone.So angry lah.Was lyk dreamy dreamy while in class. Listening to kapoh more den listening to the teacher.Hawker with him,ws n yh after remedial.Nasi,Fish soup,soya n kickapoo.Hes right lah,w him all e way eat n eat.Head hm aftermath.

Met him for dinner agn,his treat.Prawn noodles,fishball noodles,otah,popiah,chicken wing,1oo plus n ice milo.Scary hor,w him lidat de la.eating happily.Smoked,slacked,talking cock around.Head hm aftermath.was super full lah.

2007-05-26T21:42:00.000+08:00

WAs out with my ladies today,Tif tiz n nao.Miss them so much lah.Last seen them at around march.My naonao grown so much.Her screams power lah.SHe screams so loudly when im alone w her in e baby room.I cnt handle her at all.Im e godmum leh,but she don seem to know mi at all.Lol,gotta see her more often

Walked around ms,was really tired lah.Bot a m)phosis yellow.Tif n tiz was lyk so pek chek in m)phosis,wahaha i was also quite pek chek la.So damn crowded.Singaporeans!Ok,den my darlings went bebe.They were lyk making so much noise choosing over a polo n a tank.I was busy giving them my comments.And we were making so much noise tat the sales gal come n see wad happen la.In e end they bot a top each.Ok,its nice,went to e baby room n take pics.Stayed quite long,ppl wan use we dun wan come out lah.Lol.Truly,i enjoyed e day with them.

We don really hv e chance to spend much time,but when we do meet up,im really happy.I will think back those times in mjr how i got to noe tif.We often bitched around,skipped school,do all sorts of crazy things.Those were e times i really do miss.After she left,our paths r diff.But darling,i really wan u to be succesful.Although we do have some misunderstandings once in a while,but i make sure i clear up,cuz i dun wanna lose u.I noe for myself how deep our friendship r.ITS our memories tat pulls us so close together.I promise we will be gd frens no matter wad.I wish for tif n tiz to be succesful in life,for naonao to grow up healthy n sensible,just 3 of my precious darlings to be well.I love u darlings!

2007-05-24T16:47:00.000+08:00

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2007-05-22T16:29:00.000+08:00

In e past i don understand y ppl take drugs.But after they died,i finally understand its due to emptiness.So issit whether emptiness tat is horrifying or drugs?
Suddenly tot of this quote frm protege,very true hor?

2007-05-18T23:48:00.000+08:00

Got back all my papers today.Aaarrrgghh,i only passed chinese,n i failed my Letter Writing.Gonna flunk my O level lyk crazy..aiya,nvm.

KaPohs absent today.Got mi to acc him to doc,met him at geylang east polyclinic,was like dunno waiting for how long b4 his turn lor.. Got his mc,throw the medicine away. Cabbed down to lavander food centre again,i suggested the prawn noodles,addicted liao la,so damn nice lor.And he gladly oblige,ok,went there,lights out at e stall,ate wanton noodles instead.I was like wth when he came with e plates lor.The noodles were like so lil n the wanton is smaller den a 50 cent coin.Kpkb for a while,ate it anw.While eating,lights on at e prawn noodles stall.We looked at each other,du lan liao la.Ate Smoke SLack,cabbed home,slept all the way.

Met him 10pm again,we die also wanna have e prawn noodles lor,abit ridiculous hor.Lol,finally gotten our prawn noodles.TWo satisfied souls leave tat place.Planning to go back eat this n tat another day.Satisfied but tired lllaaaa..

2007-05-17T19:40:00.000+08:00

i have learned,as Tiffany says.SOmetimes things are better left unsaid.U nvr noe who might betray u. Im learning,not to let out everything,even to my closest fren,my best fren.I have got to keep smth to myself.It wun do mi any good,to let everything out,in e risk of being backstabbed,again.

I realise,im slowly gg back to e old mi.The cold blooded,bitchy Purrie. The gal who dun care about anything but herself.The gal who loves money more den anything else.

I really wanted to be rich.With e money,i can do anything.KaPoh is rite.Im nvr cash strap b4,i will nvr noe the feeling of being penniless.I often complained bout no money,actually its just tat i dun wanna spend the money.With e money,i can help my frenz.I can help KaPoh,i can help crystal..i can help my loved ones.

We had a big fight last sat.N my i-wun-say-sry-unless-ur-name-is-sry-attitude come out. I noe he hated this most.All the more i knew it,all e more i wanna anger him.SOmetimes when 2 person were too close,u tend to hurt them more,bcuz u always noe wad to say to make him feel hurt.I knew im in e wrong.I cant help it.My attitude just spoils everything.

U know wad? i can just do anything for him.Without asking for any reason.I just do it.Because he told mi to.

U look at mi,i turn away,U held my face,i walk away.Sry baby,i was thinking of him.The timing was just not right.. Im sry.

2007-05-16T12:11:00.000+08:00

Chatted with peiyi ytd night.Ok,i noe Tiffany sounds better,some ppl dunno her as py,but i think py sounds better,cuz im pz n shes py.haha.Ok,nvm..chatted with her for quite long,she told mi her probs n i told her mine.SHes still my best best fren,though we dun meet up often.BUt e bond is still there,both of us knew it.Ok,watch e 10pm Channel U show,dream for a while den slept.& den, at 0046am,i could still rmb e time k,cuz i was fucking annoyed.I mean who calls ppl so late at night. I looked at my phone,i have gotta pick up.its tortoise..

Finally after so long,he called mi. We chatted for an hr plus. He NEVER change la.still like to make fun of mi as ever.I miss him leh,so long nvr talk liao.CHatted a lot of things,catch up. I Still nv fail to tell him my secrets.When i hear his voice, i wanted to tell him everything.HEs afterall my most trusted fren.We were chatting like till we were yawning n yawning away.Put down e phone,told him to call him when hes free .Dunno when will it be.

2007-05-16T00:20:00.000+08:00

Out With KaPoh today.He called mi ytd night to acc him go k.HE was like i called him this morning dunno how many times dun wan ans de.Call ppl go out den he lidat lor.Den i finall reach him.I told him to cabbed down to my place to fetch mi,lazy la,still need to take the freakin train to cityhall den walk all e way to marina.And yes,this guy is super fussy,He die also wanna go to e marina branch.Ok,so he cabbed down to my place,fetch mi den off to marina,on e cab i was like nag n nag at him..
"Call u dunno how to ans call huh?"
"Call ppl out u lidat!!"
"Keep playin e fuckin com for wad??"
"irresponsible lor!!"
"Next time call ppl out dun lidat i tell u!!!!"

All e way he like was hannah hannah,den giving mi e stupid face.Ok nvm,reached marina fast,Went long john n burger king to lunch in kbox.Inside there was fuckin cold lor,he say sing wun be cold liao,bullshit la.Sang Sang Sang,den suddenly i realise theres no ashtray,so i ask for it, "aiya,student period how can give u ashtray one". I ignored him,try anw,n i get it kkaes.Den i was like asking him after k go where,decided to go wensheng hse,he told us cnt,must go out eat with family.Den called yaoming,he said ok,but must wait till 11 plus.Ok nvm,den its time for our second drink.I ordered lemon honey as usual,den him,being a stubborn head,say he wan beer. The waitress were like looking at us dunno wad to say,i gave him a STOP IT signal,n he understood.Sangx3,u noe wad? dunno how e hell he smoke,he can smoke till e ashes flick into his drink,den he drank mine.i also not enough to drink liao lor..

Singing session finished,went suntec to catch BLADES OF GLORY.Show at 7,we bot e tickets at 6,TIme Crisis for while,den sat down n chat.HAd a real good chat,chatted alot of things.DEn off to our show.And ppl,its such a damn funny show la.The 2 of us were like cheo ka peng lor.Ok,after tat went to take cab,we planned to go home bath lst den go ym hse.I dunno which fuckin taxi stand we were at.Initially we were waitin n chatting quite happily till we SUPER PEK CHEK lor.

Me:poh,wad kind of taxi stand is this?y so fucking long one??
KaPoh:hannor,cb la,wanna wait untill when?
Me:SIao cb,y ppl got moeny earn dun wan der,keep turning away for wad??
KaPoh:wth la,dunno how to turn in meh??
Me:ya lor,got money big deal meh,call cab for wad??
KaPoh:nbcb la,become stone liao!
Me:aiya poh,take train la,si bei du lan!!
KaPoh:aiya,wait so long liao,wait a while more,lidat walk away sibei bo hua leh!!

FInally,aft 1 Hr 15 MInutes,a kind soul stopped in front us. We board the cab,so tired,look at each other,heaved a sign of relief.
Me:poh,really wan go home so early meh,the night is still so early lor.
KaPoh:arbo where u wanna go??
Me:how i noe ah,u think la.
KaPoh:go lavender food centre eat lor,the prawn noodles there sibei nice.
Me:aiya,cin cai la.

Ok,as he say,the noodles is really nice.den at e food court.Ym called .Cnt go his hse liao.Den i start again.
Me:poh,go where?
KaPoh:wad go where? go home la,so late liao.
Me:where got late ? 10 smth only mar.
KaPoh:WAH LAO,u sibei jiat lat,everytime don wan go home de.
Me:aiya sian la.

Ok,our conclusion,cabbed to his hse void deck,chatted n chatted. Till about 11 smth,den he pei mi wait for cab.Dan i cabbed home.FUcking tired.Den after i reach home,i realise tat i haven eaten the burger i bot earlier..

Was a enjoyable day with KaPoh today,n i seems to noe him better.CHeers buddy!!

2007-05-14T19:45:00.000+08:00

if u hold a special place in their heart
They will always come back for u
so true isnt it?

2007-05-13T19:00:00.000+08:00

Went to wensheng hse ytd night,to watch soccer.Kapoh,chua n ws were suppose to fetch mi frm my hse,its like they told mi they were wating for cab at 9 smth n they reach at 11.. i was waiting like a stone at home.. Anw,went to his hse.. slack n ate.. den i cook noodles for them.. it was nice 0k.. den ws was like wanting to fry egg..n he just pour all the eggs in,open the fire real big n waited n waited,he expected the egg to be cooked without flipping.. i was like chio ka peng when i was telling kapoh,n in e end he do e frying,n it turn out nice..
Played com n slack in ws room,with kapoh making fun of mi once in a while.. was waiting for e 2pm match.. crap arnd .. kapoh n ws were screaming like mad when their team scored a beautiful goal within like 20 mins.. jumping up n down.. i was like.. was it really so exciting? Score was 4-3,n they won.. n they suppose because i am arnd..mayb lor.. haha..slack.. waited for e 4pm match to start.. went downstairs to smoke.. they were talking about their odds all e while.. n they still remembered they assured mi tat i will nvr be bored.. ok,they kept their promise.. i was nvr bored.. except for some intense moment while waiting soccer.. wth!! last penalty was a blow to them.. blew their chances off.. i was like.. nvm la kapoh.. there is always a 2nd chance.. cabbed home.. nobody talk.. tired like fuck.. n i was like reach home at 7am.. hit e pillow straight away.. but i am n really happy ytd.. i enjoy it though.. really..

2007-05-11T14:26:00.000+08:00

Its exams today..boring.. mid yrs here den block test n den prelims n den Os.. n i`ll be dead.. its like i dun have any fucking interest in MATHS.. COnstantly talking to kapoh in class,craaping arnd with everybody,think of wad we would be..except studying..

U noe,there r so many guys out there,there r no lack of guys for mi,but i still chose to miss u,the one whom i noe will nvr be faithful to mi,the one whom i noe u were just playing,the one whom treats mi good whenever u feel like it.. but i will nvr leave,unless u told mi u need mi no more,and that is, u told mi yourself to leave.. i noe its wrong,i noe its very wrong.. i once tot tat i was rational.. i would tell my frrenz not to cling on to tat someone if its impossible. no point torturing yourself.. but but.. aarrgghh.. i dunno.. IF only i will the purpicious magic to just crept into his heart.. ok i noe im spouting rubbish.. ignore mi..

2007-05-09T17:47:00.000+08:00

Forgotten to tell u guys. I SCORE A BEAUTIFUL VICTORY TODAY!!!u noe,serve tat bitch right for wanting to snatch with mi..Maybe she could feel it, i dun give a damn,3 yrs down the road,shes here to fight with mi again..wait for it bitch!

a heartless man

2007-04-20T19:31:00.000+08:00

sch anniversary today.Shag,went over to darling hse to keep her company. Chatted for a long long time. n den he came,i was looking at him as he went inside darlings room to pack his things,i was thinking to myself how could a guy to be so heartless,2 yrs of relationship is fucking nth to him,he could just come n go lidat,as he likes,as he want. Leaving my poor darling alone,i aches for her, at e same time i told her,it doesnt matters. Even if hes gone, its no such big deal,everybody said so,n i wish her well..

2006-11-10T19:23:00.000+08:00

Works tiring,eunice n kaiyoung aint here today,clinch no apps ytd..cfm with some cust to send their particulars back to mi..shall complete it on mon.. im so stressed.. hurryin for sumission..stressed up by all e work..talk nonstop on e fone.. with sucha pathetic pay..

Celebrated my 17th bday on wed,was suppose to mit darling mel,bt she couldnt make it at e last mninute..mit up with alan n frenz instead.. had a fun night out at k box,happy but tiring....love my boys so much.. for spendin this special day with mi.. mit up with darling ytd night.. aft work.. ate dinner n chatted for a while.. i still love her so much..
Necklace frm darling mel,ikea table frm agnes,nike bag n bottle frm chermaine,heels frm crystal,swensens frm nyx,gucci perfume frm michelle,goldheart jewels frm wj,bday wishes frm everybody,really enjoyed my bday this yr,thanks everybody!

Being in this line,sometimes i really admire those tais tais,applying all e credit cards n charge it to their hubby bills.. Money is like intelligence,u will be so confident when u are out if u have them.. try e feeling of going out without a penny n going out with a unlimited credit card.. e feeling is just so diff.. i came to understand this better upon being in this line.. as e saying goes,money do make wonders.. i shall earn all e money while i can n spend it at one go.. great isnt it?

m i really cut out for this job?

2006-11-03T19:18:00.000+08:00

sometimes i really love just sitting alone in a corner..and just to refresh all my memories..the days when im in pri sch.. those innocent days spend with frenz.. nvr ever drag my feet to sch .. in fact i love going to sch in those days.. just to spend quality days with all my darlings.. those wonderful memories.. lst time i made my lifelong frenz..still holding on untill now..n den its my secondary sch term..i tot i would nvr even made great frenz anymore.. i gotta adapt to e new enviroment..strangers..ppl i nvr noe.. i tot i would nvr be happy.. untill i go sec 2.. i started to appreciate my secondary sch life.. i met tortoise,kiff,zhzodong,zhiwei,david.. frenz tat i would definitely regret if i nvr got to meet them.. u see.. i love them so much.. they were all there at my lowest point of time..they stood by mi n help mi ward off all troubles.. n den i went to sec 3.. lst half of e yr.. im not happy.. i only noe kiff n tortoise they all..den after june.. things start to change.. i noe tiffany..e greatest gift i ever get frm going to sec 3E..we had wonderful times together... those were e days.. i really miss those days..

coming now..i dunno where m i heading.. i dunno wad i wan in e near future.. when i just step into thia company.. i told myself i have to tolerate scoldings,screamings,complainings,working as a telemarketer is not as simple as i think.. like wad wj told mi..we cnt predict wad will happen.. im still bothered when cust shout at mi,yell at mi.. i still feel uncomfortable.. but i say it is definitely a no no if i wanna continue in this line.. a cust just said to mi.. *actually i wanted to apply uob credit cards,but frm e way u promote,i don think i want anymore* upon hearing this,im really wondering whether should i continue,whether am i cut out for this job.. of cuz there r good n friendly cust,i can even chit chat with them.. its really ok for mi if cust dun wanna apply,but im really bothered by wad this particular cust said to mi.. its like.. m i really so lousy.. mayb i should really think over it again..10 nice cust is not even enuff to erase e nasty words tat particular cust said to mi.. mayb i should really consider wad i really want..

my words..

2006-11-02T18:39:00.000+08:00

eh..today company full.. heng i nvr come early eh.. eunice trapped downstairs.. henry said he sms us to inform us.. but i nvr receive anything lor..wadever la.. by e time i came full timers leave ler.. eunice say wanna work another job.. but i love this job leh.. the working hrs.. so relaxing eh.. going ikea to buy table this sat.. my bday pressie from agnes.. so excited eh.. ok.. my target is to get ermm. .. 50 apps for nov.. can not? haiz.. only if i work hard lor.. i think i really change my work attitude.. counldnt take my hands off e keyboard once i realise theres internet access on my computer.. went drink with a fren ytd.. long lost fren.. he suddenly called mi and we mit lor..chat bout everything.. i miss him so much.. miss those wonderful yrs spend with him.. oh ya.. i called up wj e day b4,and he ask mi to choose my bday pressie,which means i will get ANYTHING i want.. im gonna crack my head and think of wad i need most.. hes always my dearest fren eh.. tolerating my everything.. theres smth i wanna tell u all along eh.. thanks for everything iii lllooooovvvveeee uuu!!

arrgghh..

2006-11-01T20:59:00.000+08:00

arrrgghh.. no apps eh.. how ? how ?how ?im going home liao.. relied on e new scheme to earn more moeny le eh..anybody wanna apply credit cards?????????

just my blog..

2006-11-01T18:22:00.000+08:00

u noe,a pathetic gal tat is too old,too dark,too airportee have to relied on accessories to make herself feel better..so pathetic eh.. this is the price to pay for being ugly lor.. we gals wun actually criticise gals for being ugly.. except tat tat particular gal is so full of herself lor..den don blame ppl for sayin u lor.. u noe.. going to jean yip means shes pretty liao.. the hairstyle is nice.. but oh pls.. take a look at ur face..

ok.. i wanna touch up my dragon.. touch up n add smth to it.. i wanna put a new on my neck bone too.. ok.. i noe i say very long liao.. wait till i get my pay eh..ian say wanna give mi discount eh.. aiya free la... i treat u eat swensens lor.. ok? consider ah..i have got 3 cust ytd.. omg.. im so happy eh.. more cust means more commission for mi.. guys.. wanna apply credit cards look for mi eh..i actually love this job.. although its not alot of money for basic.. but whether or not i wanna earn more totally depends on mi..it also helps mi improves my english n train my skills in communicating with ppl..n most of all.. i like working in office.. its only two hrs a day for mi.. can go drink with my gals aft work.. so relaxing eh..don like being a sales gal being on my feet all day long..n having to look at cust face..

if is my darling mel.. she will curse n swear like hell.. she everytime told mi sshe dread being a office lady.. having to sit all day long makes her backside big..wahaha.. we diff channel la..shes beauty advisor leh.. set with her liao.. shes gonna do my wedding makeup for mi.. foc.. but provided i have e chance to put up tat wedding gown eh.. but nvm la.. wj say he wants mi if nobody wants mi.. i wun be left on e shelf no matter wad..aiyo.. arrange on darling mel to go drink next wad aft work.. my bday hur!! present ah present ah.. rmb to buy mi present hor.. bot a ballon sleeve top at topshop,podka dot dress at dorothy perkins,bag at charles n keith,heels from mondo,body butter n lingerie from marks n spencer.. im becoming a bankruptee liao..oh ya.. i saw sharol at parkway the other day.. she become pretty liao.. tortoise,cherish her hor..

Come to think of it,same time this yr im at cambodia,i really love there,think of e happenings there,great frenz i made..so memorable eh.. haiz.. ytd chat with darling mel for two whole hrs.. think bout everything..n i realise tat its not loving each other tat keeps a couple together..its e maintanance the trust and all e essentials things needed in a relationship tat keeps it going.. ok la.. i wanna go blog.. blog tmr.. if i have e time..

dreads..

2006-10-30T20:02:00.000+08:00

ok la darling,i come update liao.. hahaha.. don scold mi leh.. hmmm..holidays liao..when im still in mjr,i dread sch days..all of a sudden,i miss 4D eh.. miss e nonsense we made together.. the jokes n laughter..intially when i came to this class.. i dread it eh.. cuz i miss tortoise n my 3E.. only now till i understand.. man do have feelings.. i still miss them afterall.. i think im not going back to mjr anymore eh.. i miss all e happenings there.. great frenz i made..

ok..don say all this sad things eh.. im working as a telemarketer now..haha.. lst went interview n training wih my darling tiffany.. den after lst training she not interested eh.. den i worked.. but e pay is so damn lil lor.. den i fight n fight for e pay n finally get a better scheme.. its wad make mi stay eh.. but most of all.. i love e working hrs eh.. two hrs only darling.. u really don wan ah?consider le my dear.. haha.. ok..8th day i work.. ok la.. played around with eunice..shes really hardworking k..work so many hrs eh.. i don have this kinda working attitude..arrrghh..

met up with my darling mel last thurs.. eh.. i love her so much.. shes always so sweet.. darling.. i think of ur pressie liao.. u will love it like nobody business eh.. all gals will love it.. make a guess..save more money for my bday hor.. coming liao..okays.. stop here..needa work liao.. wish mi hard luck eh..

.....

2006-10-07T13:42:00.001+08:00

aft long sweet days.. im here agn!! mit up with mel on thurs.. shop for e whole day.. bot a pair of earrings.. had a long chat with her.. Loves her so much.. din chat with her for such a long time le.. wanna call my darling tif out de.. but shes at home eh.. nvm.. theres still time honey.. my exams over liao.. miss tiz n tif leh.. but just cant fix out e time to meet them.. haiz.. so sry darling.. Exams over liao.. i have a feeling im not gonna make it.. haiz..

saw my tattoo artist at heeren the other day..he don recognise him eh.. i keep staring at him n he finally smile at mi.. i think he can somehow rmb mi eh..went studying with xmei quite a few days.. nth gets in at all.. just chat n chat.. i somehow regret my decisions.. haiz..regret for not working hard.. whatever.. i don wanna think about it..

ok.. talk about something exciting.. u noe.. 2 of my frenz saw tat bitch around my house.. but i just nvr seems to see her..n oh ya .. i msg her n she bastard mi.. why is there such person huh.. i just don understand leh.. oh ya.. he say he wanna buy e limited edition perfume for mi.. cuz i told him i need some fragance when im out with my gals.. hehe.. den he said ok.. it cost a whole 200 bucks leh.. but he say hes gonna get it .. no matter wad.. n i made him swear.. ok.. met up with crystals bf the other day.. her bf was like omg.. n she keeps claiming............. ok.. i shouldnt be so bad la... wad matters is he treat my darling good can la..mayb mitin crystal next sat.. look forward to it eh..

i miss my gals!!

2006-05-31T18:52:00.000+08:00

i miss tiffany i miss tiziana i miss hweimin.. i miss all my gals.. i miss tortoise i miss kiff i miss zhaoz i miss david i miss haowen,hes so damn handsome now.. i miss all my boys.. will u soon tif n tiz.. i promise.. loves yr lots!!

Msg frm the bitch!!

2006-03-23T19:07:00.000+08:00

Received:7 mar o6 22:46
Oi.. my hair colour nice?or not nice..

Received:7 mar 06 22:48
I thought to u very disgusting..

Received:7 mar 06 22:51
Can say so..i think maybe next time u can just say it to me straight forward..anyway.my hair is not orange..mx hair is red then i go and dye blonde..

Received:7 mar 06 22:55
Can..just be more direct..My hair is the result of 4 hair dye..not one..if u are not confirm..then keep the comments to Urself..

Received:7 mar 06 22:59
I dun think i wanna noe more about wat u say..i cannot stand people like u..say one thing do one thing..

Received:7 mar 06 23:06
HaHa..u think i care..oh..sorry..i doesn't like to waste my msg talking about rubbish..maybe u should go and look at the mirror to talk to urself..

Received:7 mar 06 23:11
Oh god..maybe changi or geylang will suit u better..for people with attitude like this..maybe woodbridge will do even better..

Received:7 mar 06 23:16
Maybe u understand.Plk isn't pretty at all..fat even better.. the ah gong will be more happy..

Received:7 mar 06 23:20
OoOpS..u mean u AR..i dun want u to reveal so much of Ur identity de leh..but u say them all out le..sorry to cos u tell me wat is Ur job..get pia and dump..

Received:7 mar 06 23:26
I never say i want him back.dun anyhow say.Dunno dun say.speak with Ur brain.no wonder wy calls u pig.never name u wrongly.me and wy will not be together de.

Received:7 mar 06 23:29
Get this clear..i dun like him le..u want then take la..

Received:7 mar 06 23:33
Maybe is i dun want him first..not i say u pig..is he say de..admit u are pig then good nOrX..He continues his life..i continued mine..we are still friends..

*** Important!! ==> all the above messages are the EXACT WORDS rec'd from the "ORANGE-HEADED FREAK" (can tell her 'england' damn 'powderful' hor...lolx)

All these r sent by tat fugly bitch who is pitting herself against mi since she started her relationship with sky.. u all judge lor.. aint she damn bloddy fucking brainless to send this kinda msg to mi..

boring la!!!

2006-03-15T20:50:00.000+08:00

ok lst of all.. thanks my darling for wad u post on my blog..u noe tat crazy lil bytch is really looking for trouble on her own.. ok whatever.. talking abt her makes mi wanna puke..

ok.. mit huimin on sat.. catch big mamas hse.. its nice.. but most of all.. i culd see my 12 yrs darling once again.. its to celebrate her bday with her.. bot her a top.. took some pics.. will upload when i have da time.. n god damn.. darlings going to NYp.. with tat orange.. haiz.. let mi tell u this bytch.. don u try to fucking provoke my darling.. shld u noe she is my fren.. u will regret .. i promise.. i will make u regret .. been busy these few days.. u noe.. im busy untill i don have e chance to wear the zillion tops i bot ages ago.. some r as old as last yr dunno when.. this yr n level ler.. but i haven been in e mood to study.. u see.. last yr i study damn hard for e eoy.. dunno where e hell i get my motivation.. this yr.. i figure for weeks.. why am i lacking e determination n motivation to study.. n i finally get it.. i don have a target eh.. i dunno whether am i continuing sec 5.. ite.. or get a job.. i dunno.. i really dunno.. okay my darlings have been telling mi how impt education is..i noe it alrite.. but i hasnt been able to get into the mood.. have been thinking of play play play.. shop shop shop! i dunno wad e hell i wan in life.. wtf.. btw.. so long nv see wj ler.. he nvr contact mi for like.. 2 mths?! omg.. im gonna call him soon.. b4 he tot tat im miaing again.. nv been to friendster for like freaking long.. n the moment i went in.. its like so many freakin fugly message whom i dun even noe who is it..

ok whatever la.. lets talk bout my boys now.. kiff eh.. hahaha.. he is so fucking cute noe.. been calling mi to ask mi bout a particular gal in his sch.. asking mi this n tat.. probing the whole day.. wahaha.. u will make it la.. i believe in u.. okays darling? got any prob feel free to call mi.. as for tortoise leh.. so damn long nv see him ler.. he hasn called mi leh.. den when he sees mi.. he will say *so long nv call mi hor* u dunno how to call mi meh? ok la.. will call u one of these days.. im busy leh.. ok.. wj.. where r u huh.. i wanted so much to tell u the recent happenings leh.. my life.. ppl arnd mi.. what is happening to mi this freakin few mths.. i miss u eh.. call mi ok?

lastly.. i still wanna let tat bytch noe hor.. u will regret for finding trouble with mi.. dun mess with mik.. as u noe i hate u.. n all e more u wanna provoke mi.. wait n see..

yo yo yo!!!

2006-03-12T16:17:00.000+08:00

Tiffany aka Peii yii in da hse!!! lolx...heard frm darling dat got dis bitch go sia lan wif her leh...she dyed her hair red to 'blonde'...budden the color turn out to b ORANGE...my darling got wrong saying abt yr hair meh?? every1 hav their freedom of speech lor...n yr color reali is ORANGE n yr hair before straightening is reali horrible lor...u wanted to brk wif sky 1st den nw wan to bother abt his life...my darling wan write watever she wan to sky is none of yr business...y u so affected by it...u n sky r no longer an item...n my darling n sky r gd frens nw u aso nt happy...bcos of u last time backstabbin my darling cause my darling n sky to hav cold war...nw the war is over n i'm sure sky wans to b in gd terms wif my darling again lor...u look at yr standard before complaining so much lor...my darling has mostly everythin better den u...u can say i'm bad,bully u,kpo or watever shit...but hu is the bullyer 1st?? u call my darling a PLK?? wat abt u...u nv give ppl fuck before meh?? u may deny but tink before u say or do anythin...so wat if my darling in front of u nice den at yr back backstab u?? u nv backstab my darling before meh...wah lao eh...u can y she cannot...yr hair is orange n jus admit it lor...u wan tell ppl yr hair color is blonde den go ahead lah...i'm sure most of the ppl wont c yr hair color as 'blonde'...onli u n the salon person noe lor...dis kinda thing aso wan let the whole world noe...yr hair 'blonde' den blonde lor...v great meh...its jus a color...n u dye le becomes orange,it reali makes u look like an orange...

2006-03-12T14:46:00.000+08:00

First of all.. im gonna send this msg to tat fucking bitch.. u noe.. i dunno which part of her went wrong.. really wrong.. she actually msg mi and wannna test mi on my comments on her hair.. and she actually called mi to keep my comments to myself.. and she actually called mi a plk leh.. omg.. so uncivilised.. darlings ah.. shld i sue her for this eh? .. u noe smth bitch?!why r u so bothered by wad i say to sky bout ur hair?? so u think ur hair colour is very nice den so be it lor.. n u actually explain to mi tat its not orange.. its make up of 4 dyes.. ha ha ha.. u think i care? seriously hor.. ur words r really in contradiction u noe.. u said u cant b bothered by wad i say.. den y in e lst place u text mi and ask mi bout it?? n u all noe smth? she actually even wanna bothered wad i wrote in skys testimonial.. i mean wad is e fucking prob with u bitch? he alrdy approve le eh.. n u wanna kbkp to mi.. and this is wad u mean by not bothered by wad i say?u noe smth.. don start with mi..in the end u will still act so pathetic in front of other ppl..u can just so continue n act lor.. act all u want lor.. she said i act nice in front of her n spk bad behind her back.. how is tat possible.. im not even treating u nice i n e lst place.. u think all ppl talk to u means they treat u like gem ah.. is ur imagination running wild?? oh no.. pls la.. get a life!

boo boo..

2005-11-16T09:36:00.000+08:00

as im out of town for e last two weeks.. so i hasen contact WJ for some time.. went out with him sunday.. he hug mi n said *i miss u* upon seeing mi.. okis.. we r still e best of frenz.. u r still my best bud.. no one n i mean no one can replace.. hes e one who will always called mi aft reading my blog.. noeing tat smth had happen to mi.. to make sure tat everything was ok..tolerating my attiitude when even my bf cnt ta han.. u r my best bud noe.. the gem in my life.. ok

ok.. went wisma n bugis with mel ytd.. so long nv see her le!! miss her so muchie.. ok.. gave her e scarf n earring tat i bot for her in cambodia.. she like it very much.. playin with the scarf all e way during shopping.. can u imagine? her bday coming ler.. im gonna choose smth tat suits her taste really well.. n i have smth in mind ler.. ok.. bot a denim bag.. n mel bot a top in future state which she loves so much.. ok.. n she bot mi a bracelet for my bday.. i really love it.. thanks darling..omg.. i really miss all my frenz.. been bz nowadays.. nv have e time to mit all of them.. esp WJ.. rmb our ajisen ah.. okis.. all wrking.. ok.. aft this week i will b free ler.. case close early dec.. den im free ler.. so damn happy.. waited for so long.. im finally 16!! its like.. my bday is so late lor.. well.. my bday celebrated my lunar bday for mi on sunday.. receive lotsa ang baos n earn a grt sum of money..

lastly to tat bitch.. y dun u go n die.. so irritating.. wah lan eh.. nw regret le hor.. whats e point.. its ur fucking fault for hurting alex.. he treated u hell damn gd.. n this is how u repay him.. anw.. this is ur retribution..i have got attitude prob? u mean u dun have.. omg.. i have all e frenz i need to pampered mi,for mi to vent my attitude on.. but u this pathetic lil ass.. omg.. if u wanna play with mi just come loh.. u think i will b terrified of ya.. u r just a navie lil gal..

cambodia!!

2005-11-14T09:10:00.000+08:00

was back frm cambodia just a few days ago.. it was really damn fun there.. really a experience for my life.. a worthy trip.. im gonna go agn nxt yr.. with xiaomei n yeeni.. edy sengwei zhiwei bingnan,OCS..made damn fucking gd frenz be cause of this cambodia trip.. this trip really makes mi treasure my life more.. its really a learining experience.. [Thida,i really do miss u,at e airport,when u hug mi,i told myself i must be back no matter wad.. for u..]

upon rching e hse.. i was like.. Omg!! how am i to survive man!! the environment.. the cleaniness.. n the lunch was horrible.. i practically gave everything to ms wee aft e lst mouth.. was practically a dreadful day.. nite time.. wanted to slp.. can yr imagine how i feel when i saw my bed full of crawling insects?? omg!! i really wanted to cry man.. i really regretted uh.. but bo bian eh.. gotta luve with it.. still gotta 11 days uh..

frm e 2 day onwards .. everything gets abit better.. got to noe more n more frenz.. esp xiao mei n yee ni.. as we were in e same room all e way.. we were bitching arnd all e way.. but with reasons ok.. tat bitch shld noe.. xiao mei also noes.. i think everybody noes..haha.. the singing n dancing on tat full of memories bus.. i was telling them if i have da money.. i wuld offer every household in cambodia a washing machine.. bcuz i dunno how 2 wash my clothes.. yeeni said if she have e money.. she wuld mend e roads in cambodia.. wahahah.. its really fun noe.. make really gd frenz there.. noe alot of ppl there.. edy.. u r sucha nice guy man.. n oh ya.. i fall down right frm a ladder.. i nearly died in cambodia man..u noe? my left leg is full of scratches n i sprained my right leg.. omg! its damn fucking suffering to get injured when u r out of town..

however.. i nv ever regret e trip.. really.. we r all looking forward to e shopping..although its only tat one n pathetic place for us to shop.. but we r always loaded with things aft shopping.. i noe xiao mei mi n yeeni bot lotsa things.. i bot 2 bags,a leopard jacket,a adidas pants,a puma tee,4 scarfs,a pair of earrings,a wallet,2 sandals.. i think tats abt it.. im so satisfied.. n its e lst time in my lifetime im bargaining.. its like.. so damn fun eh.. but seriously.. in cambodia.. besides e last two days in e hotel.. the days where i enjoyed the most is when we went to e orphanage n when we had bqq at e project site .. the kids were so cute n helpless.. i nearly cried when we left e orphanage.. they r so happy upon receiving just a sandwich n a cup of milo.. i really thank mr lai for persuading mi to be on ths trip..for e bbq.. everybody went crazy.. singing n dancing along.. crapping along.. ocs,yuheng,zhiwei,sengwei.. took grt care of mi while i am injured.. helping mi up n down e stairs.. edy also.. all of u r sucha grt frenz.. i will nv ever 4get cambodia trip.. really.. n i really miss it..

although there r some buay song here n there.. but mi n xiao mei managed to solve it the last night.. gave thida a scarf i buy.. i really miss her.. shes so innocent.. so pure.. sucha gd gal.. most imptly,i made grt frenz here.. experience things tat i might nv have in my life agn..
[Xiao mei,yee ni,edy,bingnan,sengwei,weinan] i love all of u!! cheers to our cambodia trip.. i guess either of us will ever forget this.. its once in a lifetime n i really miss it...

haiz..

2005-10-18T10:23:00.000+08:00

in e past.. i use to think im branded.. im proud to everything around mi.. showing attitude to every single individual.. even when it comes to choosing my frenz.. i choose those whom in my criteria is fit to be my frenz.. i think tat im welcome by all frenz.. just because im presented by a smile when i saw them.. aint i stupid? i nv noe e meaning of nv judge a book by its cover..

nw do i noe.. in e gals world,its not lidat.. for gals.. they just dislike gals without any reasons.. just because in their opinion..they r xia lan.. oki la.. wadever la.. im also a gal.. im in no opinion to say these things.. yuki said im harsh.. to ppl.. its lyk.. i dun gif dem any yu di when they offended mi..come to think of this.. oki.. im reminded of this incident.. there was once when mi n crystal quarrelled with a gal.. n im e one scolding her.. so i scold her lor.. scold scold scold.. den e gal storm off in e end.. n crystal told mi smth tat strikes mi noe.. she said *moon,u really went overboard* n den i kept quiet..of cuz i noe tat i went overboard.. but i just cnt control.. whenever im offended.. i just say wadever things tat comes to my mind tat i noe will hurt tat person right...

alot of ppl told mi..tat i am cold blooded.. i dun spare a tot for others.. i noe i am lidat..but.. aiya.. theres smth.. WJ told mi.. tat make mi so touched.. once.. we were out as usual.. n he can see tat i am down.. den suddenly.. he hold mi n told mi *moon,in front of ur parents,u gotta act as if u r a obedient gal,nodding to everything they say,in front of ur frenz,u gotta act as if u hack care everything when u cnt at all,in front of ur bf n e guy u like,u gotta gif ur most precious attutide to them,bt in front of mi,u just gotta be urself..* for e lst time in my life.. i tot to myself.. how come all this while he is only a fren in my eyes.. 11 yrs.. lst time i wondered.. but.. but.. i noe its too late ler.. so i pull myself away frm his gaze.. n refrain myself frm thinking any further...i noe tat.. Wj is still e one tat is sweetest to mi..

in front of all my frenz.. i act as if i can hack care everything.. i dun gif a damn to everything.. but i have feelings de noe.. just tat i dun wanna show it out.. cuz i dun wanna get hurt.. my principle in life.. *sometimes when u care for a person too much,all u get is disappointment,i rather b happy with wad i have now* selfish uh? but.. i have been betrayed by too many times ler.. trusted them so much.. love them so much.. in e end.. wad did i get.. all lies.. sometimes.. i do regret.. im wondering.. m i the one who ruin this friendship..afterall.. u r my bestest fren in mjr.. despite all e hatred i have for u.. in my hrt.. u still my fren..

ppl say.. they dunno wad am i thinking.. im a vicious gal.. ok.. i admit.. but.. all thanks to e surroundings.. the ppl i met.. the pain they inflicted on mi.. i dun wanna get all e love i deserve..if a person can make mi care for him.. it means tat he can hurt mi.. everythings he does.. my emotion is totally controlled by him.. i dun wan it this way.. i only trusted money.. with money.. i can lead e kind of life i wan.. be e kind of person i wan..

oki.. all my frenz.. including WJ.. told mi tat hes not worth it..whenever hes down.. he look for mi.. im always there.. always there for mi.. or maybe i think too highly of myself.. he dun even nid mi all this while.. im only a tool for him to vent his frustrations when hes down.. however.. when i nid him.. his fone is always quiet.. always quiet.. when i needed him.. i dunno where e hell he is.. he is e one who make mi trust no one.. no one at all.. i only trust myself.. cuz.. im e only one tat wun hurt myself...

when hes down.. he run to mi.. he noes how much he meant to mi.. but he can just hack care.. ignoring my feelings.. u noe when does he look for mi.. when he wanna smoke.. mayb im his smoking buddy.. oh no no.. its cigar supplier..boy ah.. all these yrs i noe u.. u r always searchin.. searchin for e things u wan.. u nv noe how to turn back n look.. if u nv turn back n look.. u will nv noe who r e ones u hurt.. who r e ones u lose.. u can just ignore mi when u decide tat its her.. ignoring mi when u have smth in mind.. im only remembered when u r down.. but mi? have u ever ponder over how i treated u? all the while when u have other gals in ur arms.. i nv bothered u.. i noe u r happy.. but when u r down.. u came to mi.. im always there.. i nv ignore u despite all e things u do to mi.. despite all e pain u inflicted on mi.. u noe smth? u r worst den a fren.. im really disappointed u noe..

however.. i cnt bring myself to ignore u.. time n agn.. i told myself not to ans ur call.. but agn n agn.. i do so.. u noe why? i dun wan u to be alone when u needed someone.. i noe e feeling.. well.. u taught mi smth though.. i learn smth.. in this world.. i cnt trust anyone.. i dun wan any fucking love n care anymore.. i just wan myself.. i wun gif a fucking damn to wad ppl says abt mi.. im a bitch.. im vicious.. i wun try to change ppl opinion of mi.. i admit i am lidat.. i noe i cnt take back my care i have for u immediately.. but i will.. i will ok..

i wun ever trust u agn.. u can ignore my feelings for all u care.. i am not gonna sacrifice anymore.. i wan u to get out of my life.. my memories.. i noe tat with ur memories.. i will only suffer.. i wun let a guy tat wun shed a tear for mi to hurt mi.. i noe.. for myself to get protected.. i cnt trust anyone too easily..

oki..

2005-10-17T09:12:00.000+08:00

went bugis with yuki last wk.. cant rmb exactly which day..bot 2 tops.. sucha nice ones.. i love it so much man.. oki.. den went bugis agn with mel today.. bot a bag,necklane n the bysi top.. satisfied le.. mel bot a dress.. a white simple dress.. $69.60.. omg.. i wun bear to buy.. its lyk.. just this much money for a dress..but it definitely look nice on my darling.. n it is enuff..bot a few halter top for yuki.. mayb givin it to her tml.. if im mitin her.. oki.. i think tts all la.. n oh.. im going cambodia.. have so much things to buy.. my whitening cream.. my sunblock.. omfg.. so many damn things.. saw tortoise in sch e other day.. he fat ler.. for 4kg u noe?? can u imagine? its only like.. less den 2 mths loh.. but its ok la.. wahha.. nt fat untill v clumsy can ler.. he still looks gd.. still my dearest buddy..

my dear fren.,.

2005-10-06T09:42:00.000+08:00

we grew up together.. been the best of frenz for 11 yrs.. i nv told anyone abt u..only because i wan this friendship of ours to be eternally..

u were always beside mi whenever i am down.. only u tolerate all my nonsense.. my screamings n shouting.. u were always my punching bag.. the only one who treat mi so dearly..

u were with mi on my lst breakup.. u r the only one n i mean only one tat i pour all my feelings to u.. the only one guy tat treated mi the best.. u were always always there for mi when i need u..

on the day i throw up due to excess cigar.. u r the one who tc of mi.. showering mi with all e care i need.. u r also e only one tat i will break down in front of.. when i finally told u my sorrows tat day.. u hug mi n ensure mi tat everthing will be fine.. with u around..

all the days when we spend fooling around.. u were my only childhood fren.. the dearest guy to mi.. truly.. u nv fail to be by my side whenever i need u.. n i mean nv.. one fone call frm mi n u rush down despite all e work in ur hand..

seriously.. its my greatest fortune to have u as my fren.. my buddy.. my best fren ever.. i wanted to let the whole world noe i ahve such a wonderful fren like u.. i nv ever mention u to any of my fren.. WJ.. u r still e dearest to mi

at tat very day.. we were at changi beach as usual.. n i am the usual mi.. fooling around n chattering like nobodys business.. its only when u mention his name.. tat i stop.. n told u not to carry on..but being e usual u.. u wanted mi to pour out all my feelings.. in order for mi to feel better..

i noe ur intention.. but i really dun wish to talk abt it.. however.. u succeed in making mi confess.. its true.. like wad u said.. i am always with him when he needs mi.. but he was nv there when i needed him.. i called him.. theres no ans..

upon mentioning him.. i break down agn.. as usual.. u noe tat my weakest point is hearing his name.. n u noe tat i have been suppressing my feelings for ages.. n so u wanted mi to vent it all out..u r still e sweetest to mi..

i was there crying all the way.. when u suddenly told mi *peizhen,i love u* it was only den tat i stop crying.. ponder for a while.. n look at u deep in e eyes.. u said this to mi zillion times.. but this time.. i can sense it.. its diff..

but.. i can only tell u.. *im sorry* i cnt return ur feelings.. but still.. u wipe away my tears n told mi u will always be there.. it was only den tat i cry even harder..

aft tat day.. u still treat mi so damn gd.. as if nth happen.. although i hurt u.. im sorry.. truly sorry..

uh uh uh..

2005-10-05T13:52:00.000+08:00

taka & wisma on mon with mel.. wanted to go sch der.. but in e end decided not to lah.. its like.. so boring leh..oki.. mit her at her hse.. took train lor.. oki.. two weeks nv see her become pretty ler.. still my bubbly gal... oki.. as usual.. do some catching up.. n her reaction was like.. still so funny lor.. ok.. she bot purple eye shadow.. if im not wrong la.. she can actually walk to taka den back to wisma den taka agn just to decide on e purple eyeshadow.. ok.. n oh ya.. she was so damn excited when i told her abt e makeup course we might be attending..wait for mi la darling.. aft i finish exam will go with u der..i promise k..n i bot some pen n a puma pencil box.. she was like.. keep mumbling to mi its a waste of money to buy such things.. uh.. darling.. study la.. haiz..ok..anw.. went to her aft tat.. took 3 pics..

oki.. i decided to put everything behind mi when u told mi tat u wanted to be frenz.. skys my fren.. standing beside him looking at him being bullied by e gal he love so much.. telling mi how sad he is.. pouring all his feelings to mi... u think i will feel nth?? just because i am his ex n u r so agitated by wad i wrote.. wad is e fucking prob with u?? aiyo.. fancy msg mi n ask mi who i referring to in his testi.. wad is ur prob? wad do u wan? dunno whos e one unhappy abt e past lor.. still have e cheek to say i have motive for befriending u.. who is e one calling mi saying want to b frenz.. now become mi plotting.. since u r so damn confident tat he will erase it.. go ahead man.. u think i will be scare of u? u r e one treating him this way der.. like u say.. i dunno whats happening between u n him rite... wad he told mi of cuz i believe lor.. we been frenz so long le leh.. n u claim u understand him more den mi.. den let it be lor.. u understand him more den i do but u hurt him so damn much.. since u said the two of u r officially noe as frenz now.. den wad for u bother wad i write.. so worried i writing abt u ah.. the whole world must like u issit..u wanted the whole world to see u as a princess n cnt let ppl say bad things abt u huh.. i wanted to drop e matter de lor.. but u kpkb msg mi n say so much things.. yuki told mi to beware of ur feelings.. not to be too guo fen.. she told mi gals have pride.. n i respected u by not having personal attack.. but look wad u done.. push mi to my limits n i will do wadever comes to my mind.. u can go n complain to sky for all u wan.. i dun care.. everytime have prob cuz of sky.. its not like we r fighting over him.. u so fucking sensitive for wad sia..pls my ass la.. since u r so confident tat sky wun have another gal other den u.. den go ahead n beg him to come back to u.. even sky told mi not to be too carried away with u.. n i did tat.. but i wondering whether im wrong to treat u with respect when u treat mi lidat.. beware.. i nv use e word bitch on u.. i nv use slut on u.. when i noe tat the two of u quarrelled because of my profile.. i deleted right away.. n mind u gal.. i do it for sky.. not for u.. i seriously feel tat he can find a better gal.. n i nv said sky treat mi as his best fren.. so wad he dun treat mi as his best fren... we noe each other so long le naturally we will have e bond.. at least when he have prob with u he look for mi.. it means he treat mi as his fren..

n oh ya.. i tot u very a sai wan.. saying so toughly n confidently tat u wun ever regret brking with him.. n he accepted it.. but who is e one tat wanted to patch huh.. aiya.. i shldnt interfere so much la.. now i noe tat the day u wanted to be frenz with mi.. u do it for a reason.. all my frenz told mi not to believe u.. to beware of u.. but i believe u.. cuz sky told mi he is in a very diff position if we keep quarrelling.. n i choose to believe u wanted to be frenz with mi.. but wad e hell.. when u told mi abt how he treat u.. i did go n talk to him.. told mi to treat u better.. but end up i become a bitch.. a gossiper in ur hrt.. whatever la.. go n beg him lor.. since u wan him back mar.. take la my advice la.. dun be over confident la.. or maybe u gan jeong cuz u noe hes aft another gal.. u think he love u so much damn den he will grief over the loss over u.. yup.. no doubt he really love u.. but sometimes the person is gone forever when u turn ur back on them..he still argeed to be frenz with u despite all e hurting words u say to him.. i truly salute him man.. since u claim u noe him so well.. why din u noe tat he will get over u fast n target another gal? if u really noe him well.. u would have noe it.. but obviously u dunno.. cuz u r so damn gan jeong when u heard tat he is aft another gal n wanted patch straight away..u noe wad is this call? this is mei you gu qi.. wahhaha.. whatever la.. fancy screaming loud at him n say u wun even regret brking with him.. but look wad happen.. aiya..

To Yuki : darling,i said rite.. whatever we predict is so rite man.. wahhha.. throw gals face hor.. haiz.. whatever.. msg mi when free ah..

Last words to u hor.. i did my part by not being so guo fen with u.. u dun push mi to my limits ah.. u will regret lor.. aiya.. but u will say u will not regret la hor.. come n try den..

haiz..

2005-09-28T08:46:00.000+08:00

ok..went katong on sat with yuki.. bot cigar.. wanted to buy next menthol de.. in e end next light.. yuki take one puff vomit alrdy.. den give e whole pack to mi.. den i smoke e whole pack within i think 3 to four hrs.. was feeling really down tat day la.. smoke without hestitating.. n oh ya.. saw alot of mjr ppl there.. saw hao wen,eugene n jerry.. den saw sky also loh.. he acc mi talk a while den go back play lan le.. worst moment of tat day was when i threw up.. the feeling was so awful.. how i wish i could threw out all my unhappiness.. now i understand why ppl drown their sorrows.. it really helps.. although not alot.. it does help.. to make mi feel more comfortable.. i was so damn scare i will throw up in e fucking cab.. jerk n jerk..den suppose to go yukis bf hse den i go hm de.. in e end i cnt ta han le,i alight with yuki n threw up immediately.. yuki was so fucking shocked.. keep ask mi ok not.. but seriously.. i do feel alot better aft throwing up.. at least physically..there is so many unhappiness i wanna voice out.. but aiya.. as yuki says.. no point la.. i cnt change anything.. since i cnt change anything i will have to change myself loh..

theres so many things i wanted to say noe.. i dun wanna keep it to myself.. but i noe i cant.. nvm la.. as i say.. u happy can le.. thanks for telling mi e truth.. rmb my promise to u not? aiya.. i think u dun even pay attention to wad i say la.. claiming tat im ur gd fren.. but i noe ur heart fly to her when u r talking to mi.. its ok.. im used to it.. although its hurting.. i promise i will nv let u noe my unhappiness to add on to ur burden... i just wan u to be happy n i mean it.. sometimes i tell myself,should i stay away frm u in case i cnt control my emotions n say everything out agn.. i really wanted to do tat although im not at all willing.. call mi selfish.. but i really do not wan to suffer.. but upon thinking back.. perhaps u need mi.. although not in e same way i need u.. but u need mi to talk to u when ur down.. n give u advice as to wad should u do or say to her or whatever to get into her gd books..n so i stay.. but its really really tough noe.. listening to u asking mi wad u should do to win her hrt.. telling mi u really wanted to be with her.. i do feel jealous u noe? it does not im happy just because im smiling..but i keep telling myself.. its ok.. its really really ok.. like wad i say .. ever since tat day i saw u so fucking sad.. i tell myself as long as its within my means.. i will do whatever as long as u r happy.. i will nv bother u should one day u r really happy with her.. but rest assured i will walk to u when u r feeling sad.. when u need someone.. i will always be there..

actually i have to say thank you.. aft i confess my feelings to u tat day.. u told mi gently.. i noe u tried ur best.. tried ur best not to hurt mi.. i promise i will control .. no matter how hard it is.. i will control.. n stay by ur side as ur fren..

*:)

2005-09-24T05:49:00.000+08:00

cant get to slp at all last nite.. been thinking abt lots of things..thinking abt wad he said to mi.. the days when we r so happy together.. aiya.. wadever la.. oki.. yuki rched my hse at 7 am.. bath smoke den go out le.. the stupid karaoke 1pm den open man.. bo bian come here surf net loh..oki.. recently so many things happen..oki.. lstly leh.. the bitch zao sai my fren.. wah piang.. fucking bitch.. he so damn sad lor.. practically telling mi everyday tat he is down la.. he is sad la.. n i just cant understand y she have e hrt to make him so sad when she keep claiming to mi tat she really love him??!! maybe i dunno what really happen.. but i just cant fucking tolerate wad she said to him.. pls la.. be more matured la.. there r many ways to end a relationship.. y must u make everything so diff??!! aiya.. mayb when u read this posting u noe im talking abt u.. i dunno wad to say la.. just rmb tat no matter wad u do wad decision u make.. there will always be mi supporting u..

the days when all of us fool arnd together.. cracking those super lame jokes r gone.. we will nv b e same agn..

if i culd turn back time.. i still love those moments i have in 2003.. those bbqs tat strength our bonds.. those quarrels tat make mi realise how lucky i have to have u all as my fren..

although in front of u.. im always smiling so happily ever.. but do u noe tat deep down.. i have e.. i dunno how 2 say la.. sometimes i just cnt control myself to let u how i feel.. u noe anot? but i noe tat .. if i told u.. all the things before will be gone.. it will b back to square one..

its so hard suppressing my feelings lor.. its been two yrs.. i have been suppressing my feelings for two yrs u noe? but seeing u so happy upon leading with her in ur hrt.. i noe it is enuff..

till tat very day.. den i finally realise tat how much i wan u.. theres nth more den enuff to see u happy.. when i saw u so sad tat day.. i noe its right for mi to carry on being ur fren.. listening to ur sorrows.. although i noe tat i do wan u to noe my feelings.. but i noe tat it is worth it.. it is really worth it.. as long as i can hear ur laughter agn..

maybe one day.. our memories between us will fade in my memory,but i do noe tat at this certain phase of my life.. u r e dearest to mi..

although sometimes i still do lose my temper.. but its only because i culd control my emotions no more.. the urge to spilled out everything gets stronger often.. but i will control.. i promise i will co ntrol.. i noe tat our relationship has ended way long ago.. we r only frenz now.. u noe tat i treat u gd.. n u told mi u treat mi as ur gd fren.. ok.. this is enuff to keep mi gg on..

sometimes in e middle of e nite.. i will wake up thinking.. wad i mean to u.. its only last nite.. i finally realise tat i mean nth to u den just a gd fren.. a gd fren of urs tat stand by u always..

oki.. finally.. all e best to u.. my dearest fren..

just an entry..

2005-09-17T09:44:00.000+08:00

oki.. damn long since i blog.. was chase out of e lan shop cuz i hasen rch sixteen.. wtf!! its lyk.. i happily saw e guy my ez link.. den mi n yuki sat down to play.. den aft half an hr.. e guy walk to mi n told mi i cnt play there.. den i oki.. den he say he wun charge mi.. nv charge yuki also.. den go sang ktv on tat day.. it is such a super wu lu place..i dunno how 2 use e conntrol.. i dunno everything.. den kpkb there.. den aft a while yuki taught mi everything den i noe le.. everytime go ktv very down de leh..because of e atmosphere.. the feeling.. den my moody mood come alrdy.. smoke 6 cigar continuously.. yuki kip calling mi not to smoke.. but i cnt control.. very sad la.. oki.. wadever..

ytd conference with tortoise n kiff till kinda late.. talk abt so much things.. so nan de leh.. 3 of us conference together.. talk abt opening a ice cream shop.. den i suggested dessert.. den kiff all e way gong gong.. den tortoise keep saying i MBa.. i nv lor.. wadever la.. keep making fun of mi wan..u dun everytime make sharol angry la.. i mention this many times in my blog le.. she very ke lian leh..

oki.. i wanna say this.. i admit lately i am so fucked up by e gal who is constantly scolding sharol.. and i did tag her board once.. ok.. i noe im in e wrong.. cuz its not my dai ji.. but it dun mean tat i said sry to u.. i dun owe u any sry.. n i still dun like u either..becuz tortoise is in a diff position.. so i make it easier for him..

oki.. wanna jio yuki tml go sing k.. she haven confirm leh.. aiya.. n oh ya.. tat day she go my hse.. my small couz like so much.. keep wanting her to feed her.. den yuki keep say wanna smoke..i also wan lor..but how??lol..ok.. im going cambodia leh.. im so excited.. den i very scare there got disaster.. den i keep telling tang tang..den he keep luffing at mi.. ok la wadever.. wanna go le.. blog another day..

hmph hmph hmph..

2005-08-20T08:50:00.000+08:00

arrraaahhh.. my previous posting is 2nd aug.. i have nt been blogging for so fucking long.. ok.. anw.. heard frm one of my gals tat she change blog add le... or mayb shes not kipin a blog anymore.. den i heard so much comments till it makes mi eh eh eh.. ok.. n i told my gals i dun wanna comment on anything.. nt interested in her n her fucking gals.. bitch..

ok.. so many things happen recently tat i dun have e time to digest.. ok.. lst.. its tortoise suspension.. fucking sch.. suspended him,kelvin,david,bear n tian he.. indoor suspend somemore eh.. which means i only get to see them on exam period.. gonna miss them like mad eh.. gonna eoy le leh.. den get into this kind of shit.. fucking suey lor.. ok.. whatever..met up with yuki recently.. hasen change recently.. made some recording which made mi luff like mad.. gonna mit up with her agn real soon.. her life is almost as messy as mine.. *Prays.. tat things will get better..

ok..this week.. late for three days.. just this wee k alone.. n im absent on tue.. which means im late 3 days out of four days.. omfg.. been given so many fucking days of detention..miss alot of lesson.. my teachers keep telling mi.. *puay chin buck up puay chin work hard puay chin u can do it puay chin stop bitching arnd* no la.. the last sentence i add myself de.. but its roughly wad they mean lor.. say i keep playing with guys.. den i look at tat particular in e eye n said.. *cher..my frenz all guy leh.. ar bo u introduce ur daughter to be my fren lor..* she got freakin mad.. lol.. who cares..ok..seriously.. in my frenz list.. most of dem were guys.. reason i feel tat guys r definitely worth trusting more den gals.. gals backstab gals gossip.. seriously.. im a gal myself.. i noe it.. cuz i do bitch arnd n bastard gals.. but not my gals.. its those gals.. oh.. darling noes..

i rmb one nite when i was bz doing smth.. tortoise called.. i took v long to pick up.. den he say my voice weird weird der.. den i said some personal things to him.. den he become so curious..ok.. this sentence is for u ah tortoise.. next time dun call aft 11..wahahahah... tats wad tat make him so curious.. probe n probe..n oh oh oh.. today in sch he look at mi leh..for those who misunderstood,im not talking abt tortoise looking at mi hor..i wun b so happy if he looks at mi..i mean.. happy la.. but not to this extend.. its another guy.. he turn 4 times to look at mi.. i counted ok!!?? im so damn happy tat im not e least du lan when i got my detention.. he hasen look at mi for mths le leh..nobody can understand my joy.. except yuki.. she witness how fucking happy i am when i noe he is looking at mi.. i mean.. aiya.. yr wun understand.. if i tell tortoise.. he will say.. *he gd meh?i more handsome den him* zhaoz will say *aiya,pls talking abt him,i sin shi chong chong* see wad i mean? they dun understand.. but they r still my closest darlings.. i love dem to bits man.. ok.. not forgetting kiff..tortoise bd coming.. he hasen give mi last yr pressie n hes asking for his pressie this yr.. i wanted to buy e bum t shirt for him leh..he say no size.. dunno la.. n oh ya.. if u guys wanna noe wad pressie i give him last yr.. go n ask him.. go n ask him ok!!?? its interesting..

ok..lastly.. let mi tell u bitch.. its not gonna help avoiding.. i noe wad u will say.. u will say u dun wanna continue this game cuz i am so fucking childish n u will say u dun give a damn how much i hate u.. cuz u cnt control how i think.. n lastly u will say.. u noe yrself.. u noe u nv act.. oh pls.. oki.. wadever.. anw this is my guess.. n im sure ppl who noe u will agree..if u r reaally so damn steady dun care wad i say abt u or how much i hate u.. y u go n ask *** whether i got say anything bad abt u to this particular person not.. this is wad u mean when u say u dun care?? n im sure..s u p e r sure u ask many ppl this question.. wadever lor.. looking at ur stuck up face makes mi wanna puke.. u may say i changed.. i am so damn mean.. but think twice.. wuld i be lidat if u were gd either..

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2005-08-03T08:43:00.000+08:00

probably blogging once a week frm now on.. bo bian leh..my fucking com.. i think its e CPU kinda prob..i dunno..ok.. as usual.. at tang tang hse..been a week since i last blog as i say.. i think she ended it all.. her bitches or rather her bitch.. well.. anw.. who is she to pronounce end.. whatever.. her fucking posts n acting innocence freaks mi out.. she said she noe wad shes doin n she nv suan mi..oh oh oh.. pls my ass.. anw.. u noe whether u did it anot..ok.. enuff of this..bot so many tops this weekend..wanted so much to show it to mel.. but shes bz with family matters.. ok.. she will call mi when its done.. and den today.. omg.. as usual.. 4E n my boys bash up qh.. dey were like so happy den in e end got scolded by mrs tay.. expected la.. but i dun think they regret.. cuz they enjoy it=)ok.. talking to yuki now.. shes at dunno where..ok.. watching a mtv now.. the title is kiss.. korean de.. its so damn nice nice nice.. go watch go watch.. if a guy sacrifice so much for mi.. i would cry to death..but i dun think such a guy exist la.. ok.. oh ya.. i wanna talk abt elin.. been talking to heer these two days on e way to sch.. ok.. todays her annivesary with tim.. 4 mths rite?..ok.. give u my blessings.. last long with him har.. hes a nice guy..ok.. zhiweis talking to dunno who.. he v funny la..his reaction is so damn funny everytime i make fun of him..but he treats mi gd though.. den e zhaoz.. rather go play m,aple dun wanna chat with mi.. but hes still my darling.. such a fren i go through so damn much things with..ok.. aiya.. dun talk abt all this kinda fucking things.. i wanna continue e game with e bitch leh.. i dun wanna end leh.. so sian eh..

blah blah blah..

2005-07-26T12:03:00.000+08:00

ok.. i posted damn much postings today.. i very long nv get to touch my blog le leh..ok.. anyway,im at tang tang hse all e while.. playin com loh.. hes slpin now.. am at his hse n hes slping.. so i play myself loh.. nobody talk to mi leh.. ok.. anw.. tortoises back today.. i miss him so damn much eh.. i nv seen him e whole of last week leh.. den today finally back le.. im so happy loh.. ok.. den today as usual went recess wif tortoise n my boys.. kiff gettin cuter n cuter leh.. zhaoz also.. eyes gettin smaller n smaller.. ok.. no la.. still my darlings though.. ok.. this is my last entry.. im going hm le.. bye bye..

sumtyms..

2005-07-26T11:43:00.000+08:00

sumtyms when i talk to u.. im wondering whether u noe who i am.. everythings hasnt change.. im still e one hu love u so dear much..

sumtyms when i look at u frm far.. im wondering to myself could everything be like b4.. to the days where u love mi so fucking much..

sumtyms when i think of u.. im wondering whether u love her e way u love mi so.. i wanna noe.. yet im afraid of e ans..

sumtyms when our memories started coming back.. i wanted so much to let u noe i love u..i wanted so much to hold u.. at least for the last tym..

the fucking post..

2005-07-26T09:06:00.000+08:00

ok.. u mean when i saw e testi my gals post for mi den i approve cuz i purposely wan ppl to noe who evil u r? oh pls.. my gals write bitch here n there.. dey nv ever wrote ur name on my testi leh.. my gals have their limits on wad to say.. u sure u have more frenz den mi not?? mayb in e past lor.. nw all my frenz turn into foes leh.. i mean not all.. i still have tortoise dey all n my peeps..

wad u wrote*
u r not unreasonable or bad de.. u r a good gal.. but ppl change.. i dun mean u become pai kia..

did u see e gd gal part not? u wrote de leh.. u say ppl change.. u nv say its mi leh..how come u like to rake up e part i go recess wif tif? nb its this one n only.. or u can post all e unhappy things tat i did to u.. i have alrdy said.. tif dun have any frenz noe.. only mi.. n u have got wan jun n steph at tat point of tym.. i swear if u were alone like her.. i wun ever let u b alone for recess..and how would u say i hate u? did i ever say frm my mouth not? i admit i hate u now.. but not at e point of tym where u lst post things abt us..geraldine.. u sure u were not sarcastic to mi?? think properly.. i noe why ppl says u r not lidat.. cuz u dun treat them lidat.. but u treat in a diff manner.. i dunno when it started.. but i noe for sure it happens..u noe in ur hrt.. only both of us noes wad we really said.. i told tiffi to stop.. but its her character to be lidat.. wad can i do.. i just let her write.. u dun fucking come n say so much things.. deep down in ur hrt.. u noe wad u have said to mi.. we noe each other for so long.. i could somehow get wad u mean when i look into ur eyes u noe..ok.. whatever..

*ok..

2005-07-25T08:01:00.000+08:00

ok..its such a fucking long tym since i update my blog.. ok.. my laptops down.. so sian uh.. so many things happen all of a sudden.. i dunno how to react..oki.. sg sale ended.. bot lyk 10 tops nia.. kinda not satisfied leh..my boys gonna leave sch le leh.. how how how? tif is lyk.. enjoying herself.. mel is in YMCA.. huimins in compassvale.. omfg.. how am i going to survive.. ok..nvm..

Life is so boring leh.. i wouldnt get wad i want..but darlings.. if i could choose all over agn.. if i could fucking turn back time.. i wun let all this happen.. i would have studied hard.. i would have been wif my boys now.. i would not want money..reali.. u understand not? u also wun understand.. its lyk.. no one undestand mi leh.. its lyk.. only tortoise,tif.. haiz..tif.. u noe it rite.. if i could choose.. would i want all this to happen to mi n her? she just wun fucking understand n ka so much lan jiao wei abt mi.. uh uh..haiz.. wadever la.. ok.. i will update another day..

*To my darling tortoise*
ok.. mayb u wun ever see this.. but.. i noe how u feel ok? although infront of us u r ur norm self.. ok.. sry for not being there tat day.. u noe e reason uh.. so sorry k.. ok.. whatever it is.. u noe i love u rite.. tat kinda love la.. u understand wan la.. ok.. u must promise mi to be strong ok.. u will always b my bestest fren..n i mean always hor..

wth..

2005-07-11T07:23:00.000+08:00

ok..seperations means no longer frenz.. now i understand le.. n oh ya.. help mi convey this msg to serene.. yes.. i scare ppl write bad things abt mi loh.. cuz i hum ji mar.. i cnt ta han ppl write bad things abt mi....tats y i dare not put e tagboard..den? wad u wanna conclude frm my ans..so u hated mi now rite.. cuz u noe wads realli going on? but may i noe where u got to noe all these truth? since it is between the two of us like u always claim..den where e hell u get those information which leads u to come to e conclusion tat u truly noe wads going on..n r u sure ppl hate u? frm wad i noe.. u r always welcome by frenz more den mi loh.. i have only got like my gals outside n tortoise they all as my frenz nia.. like was u said rite.. u not suanin mi when u wrote i prettier den u n figure better den u.. n u said wad for u go suan mi.. i can say it back to u mar.. how i noe y u wanna suan mi.. like wad u said when i ask u y i wanna act innocent in front of u whenh i hate u..n how u noe i nv stop my gals frm talkin abt u.. even if i did.. given my gals character.. u think they will listen to wad i fucking tell dem?oh.. so u r still thinking my bitch + Plk + slut + whore is refering to u huh? so i will have a happy life without u in my life?pls my ass la.. i have so many whores in my life which i hate.. i dunno.. mayb cuz i am like e fyn lor hor.. so revengeful..they say lil bit of things i anyhow think..y u keep sayin nobodys hatin mi.. i have so damn much ppl hating mi for all u noe..u sure u nv say i chao lao? think properly leh.. rmb tat time i wanna buy e astro bag n i ask for ur opinion? n u said it dun suits mi cuz tat is a cartoon bag n i look rather chao lao.. u forget it ah?tat time when we sms u said i am unreasonable de.. y now say i not unreasonable.. i become a gd gal now.. if i am a gd gal.. i wun b spiltting so many fucking postings with u in my blog le..ok.. u admitted to mi u hated mi.. so i shall let u noe i hated u also.. but.. have u ever think b4 y will i hate u? hating someone requires feelings.. unless tat person has a certain position in my hrt.. if nt how will i b ever to hate u.. have u ever wondered y we will become lidat.. i can say i realli treat u with my hrt when we were frenz.. nobody will hate a person without reason rite.. it must has got smth to do with u or smth u do tat makes mi become like this rite.. u ask mi wad is e reason for keep refusing to agree to e seperation part.. u got e ans now? human have feelings.. even dogs also have feelings lor.. y u keep callin mi admit.. frm tat time till now.. call mi admit.. ok.. since i am e one who make u suspect mi more.. means in ur hrt u dun regard mi as ur fren long ago.. frenz where will suspect de.. like zhaoz n tortoise.. i nv ever fucking suspect dem.. they were nv on e list.. but u suspect mi uh.. where do u think i stand in ur hrt..

2005-07-08T09:58:00.000+08:00

ok.. u wan mi to say a yes for ur que as in we will forget all abt our frenship.. i mean y shld i listen to u.. ok.. i wun b so harsh.. i mean.. what does ur seperation means? we see each other in scn n dun even mutter a single hello? u told mi not to reply this.. i mean norm ppl see this kinda things n i noe its written to mi, i will dun care abt it meh..ok.. whats e point of mi actin innocent in front u n act friendly to u while in sch? i mean.. do i gain anythin nt.. its not like some ppl instigate mi n give mi money for tat.. ok.. y must u keep wantin us to b seperated.. cant i say dun wan.. u can just say i am e one who tag ur board.. since u alrdy super confirm n wrote this long compo of urs in ur blog.. ok.. many ppl tell u i backstab u.. tat means im being backstab by ppl also.. with dem tellin u i ka ur lan jiao wei.. i dunno who they r.. they might be ur frenz.. they might b my frenz.. they might b someone both of us noe..ok.. i just came to know abt it.. many ppl hate mi now.. y u must purposely say my figure better den u? i mean im fat wad.. obviously yr better.. u wan everybody to see ur blog n luff at mi rite? if as in i hate u very much n wanna backstab u.. y would i bother to pass e fucking pressie for zhi wei? i can just throw away.. nobody will noe abt it.. he wun msg u n ask anw.. i mean.. ok.. i am vicious.. theres smth i wanna ask u.. did u receive my msg sayin happy birthday to u on ur birthday? i dunno whether u dun wan reply or wad.. ok.. u must b leadin a happy life nw.. u have so many frenz to defend u in our prob.. but i dun have a single one.. ok.. when im in sch.. i can tell many ppl hate mi bcuz of u.. i can see frm their eyes.. i dunno who told u abt it.. mayb tortoise.. mayb zhaoz.. well.. i dunno.. if its any of my buddy u must b gloating to urself tat i am being backstab by dem uh.. oh yes.. i watch tong xin yuan.. so ? u wanna tell mi im fyn? being so revengeful n vicious?.. n oh ya.. in sg.. murder is death penalty..will i still come out aft im put in ah? ok.. wadever u wanna say.. i kip claiming im high class den u prettier den u..n oh ya.. so many ppl say i chao lao.. n i know it.. n u say i look as young as my age can alrdy.. so yr shooting mi agn?u kip emphasizing to mi tat true fren stand by us no matter wad..ok. no matter wad i say wun fucking help..but.. y cant u tell mi tat yr talking abt mi too.. ok.. to everyone readin here.. im talking abt geraldine.. since u make it so open alrdy..ok.. i say alrdy.. the mirror brk thingy.. i told many ppl abt it.. den my frenz tell mi wad might possibly happen.. den they ask mi wad ppl say abt it.. u r one of those i ask.. of cuz i will tell them.. how they see it is none of my business alrdy.. u must b thinking i call them to write de.. or rather i gu yi tell them so tat they will say u.. i mean.. i nv lor.. its up 2 u 2 believe..u say u wun think abt our past memories.. i mean i dun wanna speak like this to u lor.. so u r sayin im very fake when i talk to u n sms u? den y when i talk to u in sch u nv say.. dun so act leh.. u hate mi but y act as if u dun.. ok .. im nt like u.. i will think abt e memories we have.. ppl have feelings.. everybody will think abt it when we come to do something tat i use to do for u in e oast.. mayb in e past.. im too agressive for u.. n u said i am sarcastic to u sec 1? i can say i nv.. i can vow i can swear.. i noe u wun believe anw.. so u go n lead ur happy life now.. since seperation is wad u always wan.. so be it.. seperate den seperate lor.. this is wad u wan.. even if i say dun wan.. u dun care abt mi i also cnt do anything..

sian uh.

2005-06-29T07:49:00.000+08:00

ok.. my coms down.. spoil le.. i dunno wad happen uh.. ok.. nw at lu bin hse.. nv go to sch.. so sian.. sch is always e same.. ok.. with frenz with jasmine.. i can say its a very special feeling.. i dunno how 2 put it.. but yr will understand when yr r in my plight.. ok.. she is not as bad as i think.. in a relationship theres bound to be conflicts n quarrels de.. as in.. sky is my fren.. jas also my fren.. i hear their prob some i hear le i wanna luff eh..ok.. bot my new fone le.. so damn happy.. im serious this time .. i will use this fone for long uh.. mon met up with tortoise they all le.. catch up wif them in sch.. my class is just one class away frm 4E.. great! i can talk to them whenever i wan.. ok.. tomorrow goin counselllin.. mitin yuki.. ok.. tata~

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2005-06-25T10:20:00.000+08:00

ok.. i admit i still love u..my feelings for u r still there..

ok..

2005-06-25T09:00:00.000+08:00

ok..nw at katong with jasmine n yukj.. meet jasmine lst.. at our hse de bus stop.. den aft tat yuki came along. . she gave mi a ebase top... also dunno can wear nt uh.. ok.. ytd suppose to go counsellin de.. end up goin ps with yuki.. wed go my aunt hse.. so damn sian uh.. ok.. guess wad? b4 goin to my aunt hse..went to airport with my couz.. den i saw rhys uh.. eeeeeee.. den i nowhere to siam.. cuz he walkin towards mi.. ok.. den bo bian talk to him a while.. den mi n my couz faster siam le. ok.. bot a perfume.. i think its escada?? ok.. at least i nv go hm empty handed..ok.. den go my aunt hse lor.. so so so sian uh.. ok wadever.. guys r all jerks uh.. ok.. jasmine bf.. yr noe who la.. treat her so damn bad..if its mi when m together with him.. i wun let him treat mi this way de uh..ok anw.. its none of my business la.. i also cnt do anything..ok..

Esp for rhys: ok.. rhys ah.. i think theres smth u have to noe.. u dun kip thinkin i got think of u leh..u r so annoying.. ohoh.. i noe le.. cuz tat time when i lst stead with u den i think of my ex den nw i brk with u le u think tat i will think of u also ah.. pls my ass la.. look at e way u treat mi.. if tat day i nv run out of ur hse i think i would not have survive.. at leats none of my ex would lay their hands on mi.. u say u wanna patch? patch for wad? for u to beat mi whenever u like.. n hor.. i dun like sky le lor.. u dun keep anyhow think la.. its outa ur concern anyway.. ok.. u just fuck off frm my life.. i wun give u a chance to fuck or beat mi agn..

haiz..

2005-06-22T10:21:00.000+08:00

ok..today slack at hm e whole damn day.. com finally ok.. rite aft i msg dinez..ok.. was readin my testi readin ppls blog n writin testi for my darlings.. yuki n mel.. ok.. tml goin out with mel agn.. i suppose it will b e last time i go out in this week.. its sch time agn very soon.. dad says its better to stay at hm.. prepare for the coming term.. n yes.. i wanna work hard.. darlings dun laugh.. i really wanna wrk hard uh.. ok..

sometimes i really wanna get out of mjr.. like wad yuki says.. steppin into mjr its like steppin onto my past.. so many happy n sad memories.. of cuz it is e sad memories tat i dun wanna even rmb.. actually when m in pri 6.. postin day.. how i wish i cld get rid of sky.. as in so many things happen in pri 6 btw mi n him.. n i wanna go to a new sec sch n start a new life.. this is really wad i think.. but.. i end up in e same sec sch as him.. ok.. den we patch.. den he make mi sad agn.. wth!! den so many things happen in 2003 & 2004.. but everythings come to an end eventually.. its all over.. we r frenz agn.. the feellin is special.. ok.. but..the very thing tat im proud to be in mjr.. i made so many wonderful frenz.. im proud of my frenz.. i love them.. they r the only ones i feel worth comin to this sch.. cuz i noe them..aft this yr.. everything will change.. we will b seperated.. i noe no matter how she bu de i feel.. they also have to go.. i jus hope tat they wun forget mi n they will lead a carefree life like when they r in mjr.. ok.. i love u my frenz..

at mel hse..

2005-06-21T07:37:00.000+08:00

ok..nw at mel hse.. actually wanted go out de.. but aft tat decide to come her hse pei her chat lor.. den rch her hse a while go pass my fone my 7200 to gerald.. he is so damn nice lor.. come all e way here just 2 help mi sell fone.. he is a gd guy lai de.. dun let him go hor gals.. ok.. cuz i dun like my 7200 leh.. dun like e design aft buyin n it has got a mere prob.. ok.. i wanted to buy 7260.. but i still cnt decide on wad colour to get..ping pong kip call mi buy cuz she buyin 7270 uh.. den same range as her lo.. anw.. i like e fone alot also..ok... den went parkway pei mel buy her anna sui foundation sponge.. sat went out with rikku n yuki.. each bot a top frm ebase.. ok.. its like.. one mth nv contact e bitch le leh.. its like.. no sms.. no whatsoever.. dunno wad e hell happen to her.. mayb get beaten by ppl cuz she is so so so xl.. ok.. wadever.. update another day.. gonna chat with my mel le..tata~

ho ho ho..

2005-06-18T09:18:00.000+08:00

Ok..i finally bot my fone!!! Was so happy at e lst sight of it.. GSS is just so grt..it provides midnight shopping..which is such a advantages when I wanna squeeze all e money outa my mum.. meetin yuki & rikku.. eski bar at boat quay rite darlings?? Ok.. im looking forward.. cant wait to go for my shoppin spree..

[& oh.. she kip emphasizing shes a spendthrift but she dun have e money for her to be one.. Omg..so y r u tryin so hard to convince my gals tat u r a spendthrift so tat dey can tell mi U HAVE E MONEY TO BE A LST CLASS SPENDTHRIFT!!wad r u tryin to prove man?? Or u can just flash ur notes in front of mi n I will definitely believe u.. wad a joke.. go n check it out who has more money n allowance b4 u wanna disgrace urself to us agn..let mi tell u smth out of my SYMPATHY ok?? Last sat,ur bf was seen touchin another gal in town.. cineleisure,rocky master.. at abt noon..specific enough?? Another tym was at junction 8.holding hands with yet another gal.. OMG!! My poor gal.. I tot u claims tat he love u a lot?? N tat he live in bukit batok he wun go these areas? But he is seen there leh.. by my informants.. so wad can u say?? Go hm n tc of ur bf la ok.. b4 u actually come n hao lian to us e amount of money u have..]

tired..

2005-06-15T14:56:00.000+08:00

otsWo.. im so damn tired nw.. bt I will wait.. I wanna watch e repeat version de yuan lai jiu shi ni.. I wanna see e I not stupid de wen fu.. he so handsome..drools.. ok.. I wanna see him.. just wait n wait.. im so tired le.. yawn till my jaws droppin le.. ok nvm.. aaarrrgghh.. tml im going for counsellin agn.. every week.. sian uh.. ms ong call mi to draw family tree.. wah piang.. my family is so damn big.. draw till when.. ok.. just nw heard a shocking frm crystal.. I cnt say here la..my ear hurt so much... I think I too gei kiang le.. go pierce tat freakin position.. so damn fuckin pain hur..i turn turn turn e stud den appy alcohol also lidat.. wadever.. ok.. just nw my fren told mi smth.. so damn meaningful.. [dun hurt e one tat u love,u will definitely regret it for life].. ok.. the show start le..tata..sumtyms things cnt b force la.. ok.. I really have 2 go le.. bye!!

^_^

2005-06-15T13:01:00.000+08:00

Ok.. today went junction 8 with couz.. I was lyk.. nv go there b4.. ok.. Its beautiful there.. shop n shop.. bot a pair of earrings and one jeans.. den I saw rhys there .. with nyx.. I wanna call nyx de.. but later rhys will see mi.. so I faster siam.. ok.. wondering wad e two of them is doin there.. ok.. went hm.. take cab.. was so tired..den at night.. have sum kinda sort of quarrel with darling yuki.. ok.. we r both impulsive n attitude.. but.. save all those attitude for other ppl.. we r both at fault.. sry anw.. ok.. so long nv chat with tortoise le leh.. dunno whats he fucking bz with nowadays.. call him nv call back la.. see la… he lidat agn.. im gonna go fan him agn.. ok.. dunno aft he graduate will contact mi not.. I wish he will.. I want him to.. cuz he is my best buddy.. he is e best person I can relied on n trust.. he will tc of mi when I need help.. I jus love him so much.. I rmb when m steading with sky.. I listen to tortoise more den I listen to him.. lol..this cause him to be freakin angry.. so we quarrelled.. ok.. let mi disclose some interesting facts when m steading with sky.. I was always arguing my way out with him.. cuz at tat point of time im using prepaid.. den there was once tortoise called mi and chat.. and he called my fone.. den he told mi to use my hse fone to call him cuz kinda ex.. den I ok immediately.. but whenever sky told mi to do so.. I will just argue with him n tell him I dun wan.. he just got freakin angry.. den he came to noe abt this thingy.. he scolded mi n kpkb.. say I listen to tortoise more den him.. who is ur bf?? U listen to him more den mi.. den who am I to u?.. wahha.. ok.. I dunno y im lidat.. I still told him its impossible to gif up tortoise cuz of anything.. ok.. looking back everything.. it just seems so funny.. it just shows how unreasonable I am.. ok.. I cant help it.. tortoise noe he meant a lot to mi.. he noe I care for him.. yuki told mi my closeness with him nobody can understand.. cuz we just so close… ok.. wadever.. im happy to hear tat also..

hur...

2005-06-14T09:40:00.000+08:00

Ok..went ps on sat with yuki & rikku.. bot a top & pierce my ear.. I dunno what tat position is called la.. but I noe is my ear lor.. ok.. met up with yuki fren.. two guys.. well..i dunno wad to say abt them .. dunno dem well.. ok.. den sun stayed at hm.. went to but dog food with ping pong.. ok.. she told mi I can take black very well.. ok.. fantastic..black is my fav colour.. den I saw crystal on street.. she was with another guy..im nt sure whether she broke with alex le nt leh.. I dun dare 2 ask alex.. but aiya.. dun care abt them la.. later I get myself into trouble uh.. ok.. when can I get my fone??

Counsellin..

2005-06-10T14:34:00.000+08:00

Ok..today went to e counsellin session..my appointment was lyk 3pm.. ok.. den I rch there super punctual lor.. 3 on e dot.. but my counseller.. as in ms Joanna ong.. ok.. if I tell tortoise n my boys abt my counseller name.. dey will luff lyk theres no tml.. cuz..well.. I dun have to say rite?ok..anw.. I wait for her till 3.25pm.. den she talk to mi.. ask mi abt sch family.. she was quite nice though.. jus tat her sense of dressin is kinda… blah blah blah.. ok.. den actually im suppose to go for the mime de.. which is directly opp their office.. have got dance,soccer,rap,mime.. etc.. ok.. I told ms ong I have spilt headache.. but she still call mi to go.. which is for a while.. ok den I go lor.. go n see e dance.. the gals there were cool.. as in when they dance… the dance steps were nice.. I spotted a cute gal.. she was very cute.. ok.. anw.. im nt a guy.. ok wadever.. den I was standin there watchin n suddenly two super XL gal appear frm nowhere.. they were lyk keep starin at mi.. wanna bully mi cuz im new hur??!! Den I turn my body n let them have a look at e wonderful art piece on my arm.. den they turn away immediately.. im nt actin or wad lor.. but these gals reali deserve sum punishment.. ok.. aft tat go home.. take cab..

Ok..2nd part of my bloggy.. I seems to love my family more n more.. cherish my family more n more.. my dad of cuz.. my cousins.. my aunts n uncles..these were e ppl who acc mi grw up.. I love them more n more.. few of my frenz can spend so much time with their relatives tat often.. all e more I noe I shld cherish e ties I have with them.. they r e ones tat I can relied on for a lifetime.. I love all of u!! Except those bitches n bastards who ruin my family yrs ago.. hell is waitin for yr..

Happy dAy...

2005-06-09T12:45:00.000+08:00

WOo~ today have had a happy day.. bot e things tat I aim.. ok.. today meet mel at her hse at lyk 1.15pm.. ok.. den headed straight to ps.. im always so happy to meet mel everytym.. we always have so much things to talk n luff abt..ok.. so happy to meet her.. den went to ebase.. bot two tops which cost mi $55.. rather cheap though.. for tops la.. den went to pasta mania.. mel treat mi eat.. cuz she owe mi a meal.. ok..den walk around for lyk 1 hr plus.. den went to chomel to see earrings.. n we were lyk spending 1 hr plus jus looking at those earrings.. can yr imagine?? We were lyk kpkb the price n etc.. but in e end I nv buy.. mel bot one pair.. its lyk ribbon kinda pattern..was quite nice.. den aft tat wana go paya lebar de.. but in e end decide to go mel hse.. go see her mom.. sit for a while den go le.. den smth very amusing happen… I was hailin cab when one of my pri sch mate called mi.. we chatted for long.. den suddenly he ask mi hows mi n my boy.. den I ask him.. who is my boy? How come I have boy I dunno.. den guess wad he say? He say.. ur boy mar.. sky lor.. as in waiyi.. I was lyk.. huh?? Den I luff for lyk 20 mintues.. his antenna was super short lor.. I was lyk.. I dunno how 2 explain la.. so funny lor..we brk for so damn long.. n there r still ppl thinking we r together.. ok.. talk of sky hor.. on our way home 2 mel hse.. I saw him on train.. at lst mi n mel say Patrick n emmerson,den saw yi han.. den ok nvm.. den guess wad? We saw sky.. my hrt pi po pi po so damn fast.. I was so damn scare leh.. I wanna find a hole n put myself inside.. n nt cuz I like him ok.. its lyk.. its norm reaction mar.. hes my ex n I nv ever expect to see him.. I dun have e xin li zhun bei leh.. den he suddenly appear in front of mi.. but he nv see mi la.. that was e heng heng heng part.. n somemore mel was shouting so loud when she saw him.. she shouted.. waiyi leh waiyi leh.. I was lyk.. shhhh.. shhh.. talk of sky hor.. I everytym see him de leh.. I was lyk.. last yr I saw him in bugis 5 times.. I think 4 times he with jasmine.. den 1 time he with Patrick,. But so what? Im not interested.. ok..wadever.. update agn..

Somemore pics..

2005-06-08T23:49:00.000+08:00

Ok..my tattoo dragon..love it so muchie..im gonna add some flames to it very soon..

My couz 3D spider tattoo.. so damn nice uh.. love it so much.. but too much i dun like spiders..but this is simply excellent..

Dine & mi,took it long ago.. but i love this pic..

wadever..

2005-06-08T13:38:00.000+08:00

Ok..sat have a big quarrel wif a fren..its nt reali quarrelling actually..its jus smth lyk we nt happy abt each other & fought it out in smses..yes,in sms..Even if its sms..it is enough to make mi kinda agitated & moodless..ok.. she was once my best fren.. ok.. u r rite.. but u were nt my best fren anymore..i do nt want to deceive u.. so I shall tell u e truth.. mayb as u say.. there r far too many misunderstandings btw us tat can nv b solve..probably im too sensitive.. yes.. im sensitive.. or worst come to worst.. im unreasonable.. lyk wad u said..

A fren told mi a story abt [[The frog & the scorpion]]
Ok.. there was a scorpion tat wanted to cross a river or lake.. wadever.. but it dunno how 2 swim.. a frog was there.. so e scorpion ask e frog *can u carry mi on ur back n bring mi across the lake?* The frog said *nono,wad if u stung mi,u r so poisonous.* & e scorpion replied *y wuld I stung u?if I do so,both of us will b dead* Upon hearing this,e frog brot e scorpion across..however.. the scorpion did stung e frog.. The frog was so angry,he asked *y did u do this to mi* The scorpion replied *Its my nature.*

Aft hearin this story,it made mi think deep.. mayb its my nature to be so unreasonable.. to b so bitchy.. sumtyms i tell myself not to do things tat I noe is wrong.. but I cnt help it.. I do feel sad abt our frenship.. I do cherish it.. but.. but.. both of us noe tat we can nv go back 2 b4.. to e days when I run to u whenever I hab probs.. e days when we spend our whole damn day talking.. the days we hang out everyday aft sch.. all these was gone.. my frenship with gals always always fail.. I dunno y.. Back den,we were so happy together.. I treat u as my precious gem..mayb u dun even noe.. but frm sec 1 till now.. u simply gif mi e feelin tat I am nt ur best fren.. im one u can do without.. I do not like this feeling.. im searching for e rite feelings all e while.. mayb im wrong to blame u for everything.. mayb I kinda lyk push all e blame to u for this failing frenship.. but I dun wanna lose a fren.. I do cherish every frenship I have..but as u say. Ours is changing.. I feel so sad to hear this.. it is definitely not e amount of tym we spend together.. back den when we were in sec 2.. when I was still with sky.. n u were with him… we hab so lil tym together.. but we can still feel e bond when we get together.. but nw.. I cnt feel it anymore.. mayb I bothered too much how much I meant to u.. mayb im too ambitious.. I wanted to b e best best fren in ur hrt.. lyk u were in my hrt.. but I noe its nt possible.. or probably I mistaken ur way of speech.. but sumhow I feel tat u r sarcastic to mi in some ways.. once I decide or conclude on smth.. I wanna hear no explanation.. seriously.. no amount of fucking explanation will help.. mayb we shld jus leave it this way.. days of best fren life were gone.. mayb we will jus continue as fren.. as u say ...wadever..

had a fun dayyie..

2005-06-07T12:32:00.000+08:00

Ok..today early in e morning go meet nyx,alex & crystal.. was lyk.. meet them 9am at white sands..omg!! so damn early.. I 6.30 wake up le leh. Shit uh.. den in e end I sit in front of my wardrobe for half an hr.. I cnt choose wad 2 wear.. bot many tops recently.. dunno which top 2 match..den I called crystal.. she cnt choose wad 2 wear also.. ok.. den its alrdy 7am.. sun is so bright.. n I was lyk.. haven decide wad to wear n haven make up.. den I was thinking.. I have 2 b fast.. if nt nyx n alex will bomb mi till I go deaf de… ok.. den in end.. wore e mango shirt I bot last wk n my sugarlink skirt.. by e time I bath blow hair makeup its alrdy 8.30.. omg.. im still planning to take train.. den bo bian lo.. take cab.. $11++ uh.. cuz peak hr.. ok.. den rch there.. go white sand shop n bot some accessories.. den off we go to town.. wisma.. bot a bag.. aft tat walk walk walk den went to parkway.. esprit was on sale!! Bot a skirt a strip pants n 2 tops.. gonna go bankrupt alrdy.. den aft tat go orchard tower.. we abit ironic la.. was lyk.. shld have head 2 orchard while we were in wisma mar.. but we last min den think of it de.. cuz I wanna check out e price for my future tattoo.. my added on flames.. my 3rd 3D scorpion n my tribal scorpion.. all add up to $400+.. ok.. aft I buy my new fone will go for e tattoo.. den aft tat 7.30 le.. den nyx hail cab see mi hm.. cuz alex n crystal wan go part tall mar..n btw the 2 of them r on stead.. ok.. den on cab take a nap.. cuz traffic jam leh.. I also dunno y.. peak hr I think.. den take a nap lo.. so tired.. den I dream leh.. I dream of sky..scare mi leh.. I dun wan 2 have anything 2 do with him le.. but we still frenz la.. dream of mi n him while we were in sec 2. lol.. we went east coast part tall.. wahaha.. so funny uh.. I can dream of wad happen 2 yrs ago.. ok.. den rch my hse alrdy.. the driver call mi. I still in my dreamland uh.. den ok pay money.. den im in a daze for like 1 hr uh.. keep thinking y e hell I dream of him.. probably I miss him? But no leh.. frm hol till nw I din even rmb him.. but wadever la.. hes jus a ex.. wad e hell.. den bcuz of him I think of jasmine.. they stead mar.. stead so long.. ok… give yr my blessings.. ppl reading this sure think I very fake one.. but wth! Its like.. if I still like him of cuz its very fake of mi to say this.. but pls la.. I dun love him alrdy.. jasmine is my fren.. I wun hurt her de k.. since I agree to be frenz with her I reali treat her as my fren de.. but anw.. y shld I explain 2 yr.. ok.. den nyx called.. interrupt mi.. im in deep thoughts leh.. thinking abt my memories with sky.. back den was so funny when im with him.. sometimes memories r reali beautiful.. my kor once told mi.. memories can nv ever b erase.. whenever we do smth.. we will think of a certain someone.. like when I go ecp.. I will think of sky.. I go red hill.. I will think of rhys.. I go geylang.. I will think of nyx.. lol.. he always told mi the food there very nice den always bring mi go de.. ok anw.. I wanna go bath le.. been out e whole day.. so smelly uh.. ok.. tml goin out wif mel.. looking forward.. bye..

Slackin at hm..

2005-06-06T08:26:00.000+08:00

Ok..slackin at home nw.. nth to do actually.. nowhere to go.. sg is jus lidat.. almost all e place go b4 le.. but its great sg sale nw.. gonna go shop wif mel on wed.. bot 5 tops last wk..2 frm ebase.. 2 frm mango & 1 frm sugarlink.. ok.. kinda broke nw.. wanna change fone.. bot nokia 3220 2 weeks ago.. bt dun reali lyk it.. feel lyk changing.. ytd actually suppose 2 meet yuki de.. but she last min cnt make it..so I went bedok wif my couz in e evening.. bot 1 heels.. this season sg sale gonna shop lyk siao..ok.. dearie tortoise still owe mi $10..i kip pestering him 2 pay mi.. also dunno he got money nt.. actually I was joking de la.. if he no money den no money lor..but he tot I serious wan… keep wanna return mi e money..ok..wadever la.. thurs needa go counsellin.. tpy lor 1.. so sian uh.. needa go all e way there.. Ok.. den ytd at nite.. as mi n my couz were downstairs my hse.. we saw this van at e parking lot shaking.. den e 2 of us were lyk looking at each other n hehehe.. den we slowin move towards e van n listen.. there was e making love sound.. we chio ka peng.. ok.. den we went up n told my family.. my whole family almost went down n see.. but in e end nv..ok.. didn’t noe there r still so bold ppl nowadays.. ok.. update another day.. or later.. if I have e time..

Ok.

2005-06-04T09:30:00.000+08:00

Ok.. the bloody cb freakin com.. I type everything n den it suddenly turned blank.. was so damn irritated.. ok.. was lyk.. so many days nv update le..ok..on sun went to park way wif mel..chat so many things.. miss her so much..spend so much,..im damn broke nw..ok.. den on tat very day smth happen 2 yuki & tortoise.. yuki fret over wad fone 2 buy.. she will be agitated n irritated easily.. so sad im nt by her side to calm her down.. if m wif her.. I will always calm her down de.. if nt she very stress wan.. ok.. den tortoise called mi wanna tok 2 mi.. den I was so damn du lan.. I ans e fone he cnt hear mi I cnt hear him.. this continue for so damn long.. I was so damn frustrated alrdy.. den aft tat he msg mi n told mi wad happen .. his fone drop on e floor n spoil.. den I seize e chance 2 criticise Samsung fone..lol.. ok.. den he told mi 2 look out for fone for him..den we chatted for quite long den aft I rch hm he call mi agn.. n we chat.. he was ok alrdy..back 2 normal.. nt so sad le.. im so happy.. cant bear 2 see him so sad lo..nw hes ok.. im happy le.. ok.. den bot so much things on tat day..spend so much money..precious moment bag-$29.90,dolphin bay-$29.90,syl album-$15.. den $20 on cab n food..im broke alrdy.. but im happy.. cuz can go out wif mel mar.. den took some pics wif her also.. will upload later..

Changi Chalet..
Ok.. the chalet wad frm 31 may – 3 may.. was so damn fun.. everybody dun feel like goin back uh..so fun eh..ok..i dun feel like writing la.. but very fun jiu shi le.. ok.. update another day..

ok..uploaded these pics..

2005-06-03T16:01:00.000+08:00

Wif mel..at yoshinoya..

Ok..taken by my couz..

look carefully..its nt e same as e previous one.. though its quite similar..

anOthEr eNtry tOday..

2005-05-29T05:30:00.000+08:00

Ok..lst i wana say.. i have think it over.. i dun wana bother abt e bicth anymore.. bcuz of her.. my life has become so miserable.. so many misunderstandings..so many freakin bloody ppl ask mi this n tat.. *do wad u wan,so long as u dun provoke mi*.. but as for those bitches who bitch abt tortoise leh.. i dunno hu e hell r yr n i duno whether yr still bitch abt him.. but i jus wana tel yr let mi find out agn i wun let yr off.. thats abt it..

Ok.. im so xin ku noe.. my family.. hur.. no $$$ 2 spend,continue lyk this gonna go open leg alrdy.. no la.. kidding.. but.. but.. aiya.. wadever.. life is so sian so miserable.. i think im still in love wif u.. mayb a lil.. mayb a lil more.. mayb all e while.. all i noe is.. i wanna see u.. i wanna noe wad yr doing.. i wanna noe whether r u fine nowadays.. r u still leadin tat fucking controlled life.. but anw.. i noe its impossible alrdy.. everything is over.. long ago.. if one day mayb u get 2 read this.. i jus wana let u noe i still do care for u.. but in a different way.. i still do rmb u.. i still rmb e memories we made.. i still wan u to b gd.. i still wan u 2 b happy..many yrs down e road.. u might nt rmb mi anymore.. u might nt b able 2 recall u were once wif mi.. but i wun..i will still rmb u.. till e end of tym.. i wan u 2 b happy.. n seeing u so happy nw..im contented.. at least im rite 2 let u go at tat moment.. if u stick wif mi.. u will nv b happy.. ok..wadever.. im born to bring u sorrow.. wad to do? i sound very ke lian hor?? lol.. but this is e truth la..i always seem 2 get him into trouble..ok.. many dun understand y i still do love him so much.. but hor.. he is e lst guy i reali reali do love one.. i reali love u one.. reali.. although tat day i tell u i dun.. but this kinda things how u wan mi to say.. when we were together.. i treat u lyk.. i duno.. tissure paper? wahaha.. i treat u very bad la.. but.. but.. i reali love u one.. nw i wana treat u gd also cnt.. n when i ask u m i e gal u love e most.. u told mi no.. hell! cant u just lie to mi? y mus b so honest? when we were together u were nt so honest.. nw suddenly lidat.. but aiya.. i now i brot it upon myself.. who can i blame?.. my pride lo.. my pride holds mi back frm lettin u noe i care for u.. y mus i act as if i dun gif a damn abt u.. n y mus u believe my body language.. there r many things u needa judge frm ur hrt.. nt ur eyes.. neither ur mind.. anw.. its a fact tat we r apart nw.. u r happy wif her nw.. im happy for u,happy for her.. if u ever get 2 read this.. i wanna let u noe.. all of e things tat i done 2 u when we were together.. it is nt true.. u r nt useless to mi at tat time.. u r impt 2 mi.. i love at tat time.. although i told u i dun.. ok..someone once told mi pain is self inflicted..sometimes when i noe tat im gonna think of u agn.. i will tell myself 2 think of ur bad ponts.. to think of everything tat is nt worth for mi 2 love u.. but time n agn.. when smth happens.. i jus came 2 realise my feelings for u once agn.. which i dun wana feel this way.. but u had planted all e memories we had in my head.. it can nv b erase.. many yrs down e road.. i will still love yu..

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2005-05-29T04:13:00.000+08:00

Ok.. nw at cine lan shop.. was at cine wif yuki n rikku bt kinda duno go where so come here n surf e net lo.. today was in a freakin bad mood.. had a fucking bloody quarrel wif my bloody mom.. i wun gif her a cent if i went to work.. ccb!nt in e mood to go e chalet also.. thanks to her! Ok.. wanna talk to tortoise leh.. ytd i called him den he was nt free he told mi to call him today.. gonna call him later.. wah.. i nv noe got so many bitches view my blog de leh.. den bitch bhind my back agn.. pls la.. dun think i duno la.. wana bitch abt mi.. dun let mi noe mar.. so stupid let mi find out n let mi find u agn.. wad for??Ok..btw.. im nt sayin yr cnt view my blog.. its ok if yr wana view.. bt dun go round bitchin agn.. its ok if yr wana bitch abt mi,but u better dun let mi noe hu u r..lol..i duno wad im talking.. lol.. dun always bitch abt mi leh.. hab got nth better to do issit.ok.. later i wanna call tortoise alrdy.. gonna discuss smth wif yuki lst.. tata~

WOo~

2005-05-28T08:38:00.000+08:00

Ok.. nw at yuki hse.. actually wanna go out wif her de.. but in e end nv,, so went her hse play com.. rikku was nt in.. meet her bf le.. yuki hse have like.. 6 com? Omg..one for each of dem.. rich gal.. ok.. i love yuki more each day.. she taught mi alot of things abt blog.. how 2 load pics etc.. simply love her.. today was my sch heartstrings day cum b urself day.. i nv go.. so sian.. so displayin urself to e sch how u look in hm clothers.. eeee.. ok.. wadever.. jus nw had a gd chat wif mel.. she on her web cam n let mi look at her.. she was so cute.. so adorable.. i jus love her also.. smth happen to her.. my hrt aches le.. she is so sad.. but mel.. everything will b alrite soon... trust mi.. ok.. not gonna blog for kinda long.. going to my family chalet at changi.. the chalet is facing e sea.. so damn nice.. look forward to it.. will update when i come back.. tata~

My DarLing yUki..

2005-05-27T15:36:00.000+08:00

ytd had a sms session wif yuki for like 1 hr plus.. tok abt last yr..talk abt our memories.. when i think of e days she kip help mi aiming him.. see he got look at mi not.. n i help her see also.. whenever i think of it i wuld b so happy.. so damn happy tat i got to noe yuki.. shit!! i love her more n more.. i wan her 2 b happy.. i dun wan any guys to hurt her.. fuck him!! he dunno whats gd for him.. nvm.. yuki.. whenever u r sad.. jus rmb tat u will always hav mi.. ok.. i noe u sure very touched when u see this.. wahaha.. ok.. love u darling.

Ok.. jUst anOther pOsting tOday..

2005-05-27T14:57:00.000+08:00

Ok.. I guess I will go crazy sum day..its lyk.. since I got my blog skin done.. I have been blogging non-stop.. mayb cuz I nth to do lo.. I dun wana spend money.. gonna save it for tml & sat going out wif my dar-yuki & perhaps another dar-rikku.. wahha.. no sure.. but I think shes coming.. hope she comes.. will b kinda fun.. ok.. some bitch is nt happy abt mi leh.. she kips gif mi jiao bin.. pls my freakin dear.. u think I even bother abt u??Ok.. just nw sms dinez.. she told mi she was in sch.. watchin stepfan play soccer. I was lyk.. huh? So sian.. if is mi I wun do tat de.. I mean.. aiya.. mayb cuz im lidat dun wan acc bf den my bf leave mi one by one.. lol.. btw.. who cares? All of dem treat mi nt gd wan.. esp e sky uh.. everytym play bball.. den call mi acc him leave mi in e sun.. so hot leh.. lol.. anw all over le.. its lyk 2 yrs ago? OMG!! I still rake up n say.. lol.. its all in e past le la.. I wun hate him le.. bt I dun lyk him also ok?? I muz write this down man.. if nt rumours again.. aaarrggghh.. I hate mjr.. all kinds of rumours..abt mi.. of cuz I noe other gals kena b4.. but I buay song leh.. everytym say say say.. bt I buay song aso cnt do anything la.. the mouth is theirs mar.. wahaha.. Ok.. was at town jus nw … den at hm nw.. was abt 2 slp. Den nyx called.. talk a lot of lan jiao wei.. ok.. den I tot I can slp alrdy.. den alex called.. aiyo.. look for help. Wif his gf.. I bo bian hab to console him..den finally I wanna slp alrdy.. den my mum nag at mi!!! wadda freakin world is this? Y cant I go to slp?? Den everything ok le.. I off my fone lock e door.. dun wan any disruptions.. den nw I wake up,blogging.. today nv go sch.. nv see dearie tortoise.. stepfan was playin soccer .. duno wif him nt.. haiz.. so xin tong him.. dun wana see him so sad.. bt this kinda things I cnt help,m also in no position 2 help him.. I hav done wad I can.. say wad im suppose 2 say.. no avail.. bo la sa.. bo bian..

Ok.. tt bitch is freakin actin to mi agn.. lol.. backside itchy wana play games agn.. I tot u say I very evil one? Say I very revengeful wan? U nt scare I do u any harm ah? Dun play games wif mi la.. go solve ur financial prob lst la.. go mend up ur family la.. tat bitch is frm a broken family.. woo~ n go whiten urself b4 u wana come to mi agn.. lol.. if nt u always dun wana admit u dark..den I heard ppl say u go Watson see whitening cream ah? Lol.. y so xin ku.. jus come to mi la.. mayb I can give u one box.. or mayb recommend u e brand..hmm.. loreal is gd.. sweetie mel bot it for mi b4.. bt dun think u can afford it.. cuz loreal is a international brand n its pretty ex..so I dun think u can afford it.. woots~
Seriously,jus dun go under e sun n it will b alrite.. but for this kind of natural blacked skin gal.. no amount of whitening products will help.. so jus accept it.. n do u noe ppl has been talking behind ur back tat yr actually darker den ur freakin pathetic bf? I bet no one has told u b4.. cuz if u noe.. u will go to those center which let those cust go under e light n change e skin colour instantly one.. u will go there.. I bet u will go there.. wahaha..so dun play wif mi la hor.. but of cuz if u wana play I will play along wif u.. its fun n entertaining playin wif this kinda bitch n make dem angry.. I lyk it.. cuz my life is nt as INTERESTING as u.. I dun have 2 keep figure out how 2 make myself fairer.. how 2 convince e world im a princess.. recently.. she lie to mi abt smth n I told yuki abt it.. both of us nearly burst into tears.. tears of laughter.. it is ridiculous for her to tell this kind lie.. a lie tat is expose immediately.. ok.. wadever.. but its lyk.. u sux lo.. wahaha..

da memories kip flashing back.. damn it..

2005-05-27T09:32:00.000+08:00

All Of a sudden,I think of e past.. All of a sudden,memories kip flashing back.. memories of wad u said to mi.. memories of how we use 2 be so happy together..
No ones noes how I feel.. I hab alrdy let u go,bt the memories r dere.. whenever I think abt it.. it ruins my day.. I wun hab da mood to anything again.. but.. I noe its nt ur fault.. I dun love u alrdy anw.. but I wun gif u my blessings.. cuz u r nt a gf bf.. Ok.. wadever la.. today nv go sch.. dun feel lyk goin.. dun wanna see those bitches.. ok.. my batch hab a lot of bitches tat I detest.. how I wish I wuld send dem all back to their lil fucking nest n let dem bitch in their lil pathetic priceless nest.. its such s sore to my eyes to see dem.. I noe im nt perfect.. I hab no rights to say others.. bt it is a fact tat they r…. well.. yr noe la.. ok.. I dun reali hab many gal frenz.. my best gal fren is only mel n yuki.. mayb I dislike gals.. well.. I dunno.. but somehow I feel tat guys can n trusted more den gals.. they dun gossip.. they dun bitch around.. they dun bear grudges.. whereas gals hab all of e above QUALITYS. Hols coming le.. im so damn happy.. im nt gonna go back for remedials.. wanna mi to go back? Dream on.. how happy tat I wun hab 2 see mjr for 1 mth.. gonna enjoy my hols to e fullest! N m gonna take out sum tym n figure out hw 2 screw da fucking bitch!! Lol.. im gonna gif her hell soon.. wait n see..

Uploaded these Pics.. hope yr like it..

2005-05-26T14:28:00.000+08:00

Taken many times b4 decidin on this one,love this pic very much..

b4 meeting yuki..

b4 going for my pri sch bbq gathering..

Wif tang tang,in class..one of my best buddy uh..

At hm,wif ping pong & jin..

Wif yuki,at e void deck of blk 102..

Sianz..

2005-05-26T11:28:00.000+08:00

Ok.. pardon mi for talking abt tat bitch.. but I reali hate her.. even when I think of her my mind gets polluted.. She is such a slutty whore.. she thinks she has many frenz.. n she think tat she is very loving wif her bf.. pls my ass la.. even yuki a outsider can see tat yr sucks lo.. yr tryin too hard.. lol.. wadever.. u r dark lo.. dun imitate mi again n go n say dinez leh.. wahhaha.. slutty whore!! Ok.. she acts as if she’s very da fang even when she noes m talking abt her.. pls leh.. show ur true self la.. wahhaa.. wanna act in front of mi.. later I bring yuki n rikku go strip u.. u think I dun dare? Come try lo.. n let everybody see ur so called “tanned” skin.. wahha.. by the tym u call police too late le.. all of us see everything.. this is wad yuki everytime told mi.. ok.. wadever.. cnt use com fer 3 days le.. gonna lend it to my uncle.. sianz.. ok… update when I free.. tata~

Fuck thOse Bitches!!

2005-05-26T08:25:00.000+08:00

Ok.. lst,I wanna thanks yuki for helping mi with this blog.. I just love her so damn muchie.. she help mi.. be it blog or other things.. I just love her.. I just love u yuki!!Ok.. today was a so-so day.. ytd had a gambling session wif nyx..i was winning abt 100+ in e beginning.. den aft tat I very tired already.. he kip pester mi 2 play wif him.. we play until lyk.. 3am? Omg..i needa go sch leh.. den in e end I lose.. I lose e 100+ I win n lose another 100.. wtf man!! I regretted .. but ok la.. anw he always spend $$$ on mi de..today recess saw tortoise.. he was so sad.. my hrt hurts.. FUCKING BITCHES!! THIS IS E LAST TYM I SAY OK,LEAVE GUI QUAN ALONE,BITCH ABT HIM AGAIN N I WILL GIF U HELL!!! CCb.. wad bitches man!! Everytym wanna say him.. y? wad he do? He huan tio u all meh? Bitch n bitch,hab yr got nth better to do.. nth to do go b po lo kuay lor.. earn money la.. CCB! I will gif u hell if he is sad or tell mi anybody spread rumours abt him again.. Ok.. my class sucks!! Mi n sebas in da class.. we feel so out of place.. its lyk.. we r nt suppose to b there.. all of them r so childish.. so selfish.. so act.. BTh!!.. we Miss 3E peeps!! We wanna go 4E!!! haiz.. I miss tortoise they all so damn damn much lo.. esp tortoise.. haiz.. he so sad den no one can console him in class le.. sob.. I dun wan 2 see him lidat.. he is my best fren.. I love him.. I wun let him suffer frm any wei qu.. ok.. den today aft sch go mama shop wif kiff n dearie tortoise.. den saw Joanna.. den he insulted her.. I was lyk.. ok.. I force myself nt 2 burst out.. but I cnt help it.. I cnt contain my laughter.. so I just luff.. n scolded tortoise.. den he han nah han nah.. lol.. ok.. once again I wanna thank yuki for helping mi.. I love u darling!!

Tt fUcking bitch!!

2005-05-25T10:54:00.000+08:00

Ok bitch.. huever u r.. dun try 2 creat havoc btw mi n my fren again.. let mi tell u one thing.. u will nv ever succeed in this "WONDERFUL MISSION" of urs.. u wanna copy my postings 2 say her?? u slutty whore.. dun blame mi for scoldin u whore.. u r a whore alrite..i dunno hu u r.. u might b cui wen.. n cui wen eh.. i'm writin abt u in my blog.. ONG CUI WEn!! m writin abt u.. come find mi den.. only if ya hab da guts.. wtf!! bitch.. u r indeed bitchy! i tot m very bitchy le.. indeed i lose 2 u.. u r one bitchy slutty fucking whore!! Ok.. i ren shu.. so how r u nowadays bitch?? still bitching around? or still dressin urself up lyk a christmas tree? or still fucking wif ur immatured bf? n r u sure he wanna fuck u?? lol.. ok.. wadever.. dun act la.. dun play games wif mi.. u will nv win.. i'm a bitch.. bt yr a whore leh.. wtf!! bye bitch!!

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2005-05-25T08:29:00.000+08:00

Ok..was lyk 7 days nv blog.. dun reali hab da mood recently..Ok.. sat went to buy my fone.. love it so muchie!! Ok.. den had a quarrel with dinez ytd.. I was lyk.. wtf man!! But we were ok though aft tt.. Ok.. wad happen was.. dere was one bitch bitching around in dinez blog.. left fucking tagging.. n she actually read my blog n use those things 2 tag in dinez board.. so dinez tot was mi.. n hell.. we was quarreling lyk.. hell.. but aft tt e bitch was there again.. so mi dinez stepfan bomb her 2gether.. wif yang aso.. she said she was bao bei.. wtf lo.. wahahaha.. ok.. anw.. there r many kpo ppl come in n chup.. make until us so confuse.. den dinez + bf go le.. left mi 2 debate wif her.. I tu ka yi bo wei kong.. den she wana compare nei.. wanna compare size.. wahhaha.. wad a kiddie.. den I say ok lo.. we 1 vs 1 u come mjr find mi.. den she lan lan.. ok..wadever.. n den yuki bth she come in n scold again.. cuz the bitch scold mi mar.. ok.. den aft tt she go le.. running off.. cuz she lose already.. mi n yuki was lyk.. come la come la.. scare wad.. she run away.. lol.. we won!! Ok.. wadever.. den aft tt I go hm le.. was at lan shop wif yuki n rikku.. I dun wana go!! I wanna spend more times wif my twins!!!! Have nt hang out wif them n have a gd talk wif dem very long le.. but I gotta follow e bloody fucking freakin curfew.. so I go lo.. Ok.. one more thing.. dearie tortoise was so sad.. my hrt aches to see him lidat.. THOSE FREAKIN BITCHES,YR BETTER DUN LET MI CATCH YR BITCHIN ABT TORTOISE,I SWEAR I WILL GIVE U HELL!! WAD RIGHTS HAB YR TO SAY HIM?? WADEVER HE DONE IS NONE OF YR FUCKING BUSINESS!!! STOP CARRYING TALES ABT HIM!! YR BUAY SONG HE LYK WHO ISSIT.. YR LIKE HIM HUR!!!?? DUN LET MI CATCH YR LEH.. CCB!!
Was so angry wif these bitches.. so many in my life.. I wun let any of u hurt tortoise..he was my best fren lo.. I cant bear 2 see him lidat.. so fuck off bitches!!

meeting mel..

2005-05-18T13:40:00.000+08:00

Ok..today finally get to meet mel.. my sweetie mel.. she is still so sweet.. so crazy.. still my bestest fren.. the last time I meet her was like 1 mth ago? I cant reali rmb.. but very long ago le.. den we chat.. chat n chat..den slack n slack.. den I treat her eat.. cuz she forgot to bring money.. den she insisted on payin mi back.. I was like.. forget it la.. wad r frenz for.. den she ok lo ok lo.. wahaha.. she very cute de la.. she kinda siao siao like tat.. den we chat bout many things.. chat bout tat bitch esp.. she was more angry den mi.. who call tat bitch so xia lan.. ok anw.. yuki n rikku very funny uh.. ytd yuki called mi.. den I was sleeping.. I was sleepin e damn whole day.. den today I call her back.. I tot she was going to tell mi things abt smth personal.. smth I cant say here,.. but hell knows.. she jio mi go cenosis!! Whahaa.. cenosis have e $300 voucher.. so she jio mi go.. I was like.. ok.. I go is normal de la.. but she n rikku?? I mean they r so skinny le lo.. anw.. gals wll always find themselves fat de la.. ok nvm..
Ok.. tat bitch leh.. haiz.. act n act again.. she is ssssoooo… I dunno how 2 say la.. but she is actin loving with her bf in front of mi.. pls my ass la.. I mean.. when e two of u stand together.. yr look like mother n son lo.. still wanna act.. but she Christmas tree mar.. cant b helped.. ok… anw.. today I called tortoise.. I tot he was angry with mi uh..den I ask him ‘tortoise,u angry with mi ah’ den he was like.. ‘huh,wad for I angry with u’ but anw.. I did smth which nearly land him into big big trouble.. sometimes my mouth kinda big la.. but I cant help it mar.. sometimes the words just suddenly come out without myself knowing.. den I was like telling tortoise.. u dun angry hor.. later I very sad leh.. spout a bits nonsense to him.. den he was like han nah han nah.. cuz I always talk cock to him mar.. actually tortoise very gd wan la.. last time I everytime throw my temper on him de.. but he always forgive mi.. n I keep complaining to him he treat mi nt gd..cuz I wan him to treat mi better mar.. ok.. wadever.. but tortoise is my bestest fren lo.. he even treat mi better den my stead lo.. if any of u bitches dare to snatch him frm mi.. I will let u go straight to hell!!! Understand bitches???

Boring..

2005-05-16T14:48:00.000+08:00

Ok..3 days nv blog le.. here I come.. sat went out to parkway a while to shop for clothes.. den bot one e base top.. same as yuki de.. but different colour.. den pei fren go paya lebar den go home le.. got e 6pm curfew.. so sian.. but heng till thurs only.. if nt I ki siao uh,. Ok.. den ping pong keep pester mi to go jurong sports complex with her .. so I was like.. ok lo.. so go lo.. and it was fun.. damn fun.. but got sun burnt aft tat.. my whole body was red in colour.. forgot to apply lotion.. ok.. and it hurts..ok.. aft tat go meet my fren.. saw a bitch.. diaoing at my ang kong.. and she turn out to be my enemies`s fren.. so she confronted mi.. she has got some kinda mental prob cuz our prob was settle like last yr june? N here she comes raking up everything..ok.. anw.. she walk towards mi n wanna punch mi.. but I ta han her hand though.. n den I call tat gal.. ok.. she is called.. veronica.. n she scolded tat bitch.. n I slapped her.. she stump her foot n run away so angrily.. not my fault lo.. she is finding trouble herself.. maybe her life is getting boring.. ok.. anw.. had a fun nite out.. miss yuki n mel so muchie!! Esp mel.. ok.. meetin her this tue.. gonna have a fun day out with her.. tataz~

Ok.. mOonie..

2005-05-13T14:15:00.000+08:00

Ok.. went parkway to buy some thingy with nyx.. btw.. we ok le.. den when we bout to go home den rhys called,he say wanna pass mi smth.. i told him i was outside den he say wanna come my hse void deck look for mi.. i was so scare i keep tellin him no no no! but he hang up e fone le.. cuz cnt let him noe i with nyx mar.. later he will ki siao uh... den aft tat when i bout to rch home i call nyx hide in one corner cuz frm far far i can see e stupid rhys le.. den he saw mi frm far also den he wave his hands n shouted "hello,moonie,i'm here" wah wah wah.. he so xia suey noe.. den he pass mi a lighter.. carving moonie.. tat time he gave mi carving zhen.. haha,, now is moonie.. he tot i got smoke den tat time i ask him wad brand of cigarette cheaper.. ok. den after tat he go le.. den nyx come out.. he come my hse slack a while.. talk a bit of rubbish.. den he say he wanna watch porn.. whaahahah.. den i say cnt.. later he horny.. den make mi horny also.. den he was like.. ok lo.. den i wanna go his hse cuz i wanna play com.. so i follow him go home.. was travelling all e way today.. den aft playin com den he send mi home by cab.. ok.. anw.. rhys ong sux lo..

Ok..

2005-05-12T09:47:00.000+08:00

Ok.. today was e geo paper.. dunno how 2 do at all.. mid yr dun have e mood to study..wadever.. anw.. today waited for tortoise n david they all aft my paper to have breakfast with dem.. ok.. I treat kiff n tortoise eat.. n den there was a whole grp of guys n mi eating at e hawker.. some guys I dunno uh.. davids fren.. zhaozs fren.. frens fren.. wadever.. just go eat lo.. recently hear a shocking news which make mi so sad.. I love my fren.. n I wanna do smth for him..

The person whom u always longed for day n nite is always nt e person who treats u gd. But ur frenz r those who will stand behind u no matter.. rain or shine.. they r just there to help u n care for u.. I miss mel!!!!! Huuuurrrr!!!!!!!!!!

Damn Day..

2005-05-11T11:51:00.000+08:00

Ok..today was nt in a v gd mood.Quarelled with nyx last nite,such a bad one.We were like quarelling over e stupid bloody farking stingray!! Wad a joke,to quarrel over stingray..ok..anw..we were like eatin n suddenly he burst out and told mi hougang stingray taste better.. den I told him in tat case den y still come here to eat.. den he was like bz explaining.. den I was like..look at him n give him a stupid face n say *huh*.. n den he was kinda pissed off n show mi his bloody attitude.. wad da hell.. such a grown guy fancy throwin his attitude on mi.. n den he like kinda grumble n grumble abt mi.. he is exactly e same as rhys.. unreasonable,selfish,self centered.. etc.. but he is better den rhys no matter wad.. at least he wun beat mi.. ok.. wadever..today has gt farkin attitude..due to e nyx.. den I cnt slp last nite.. so drag till like 3 smth den I slp.. n den I have 2 wake up at 6 to bath n prepare for sch all dis.. was damn tired.. dun wanna go 2 sch. But got exams.. so bo bian just go 2 sch.. ok.. den aft sch nyx called.. to apologise.. den I buay song.. throw all my frustrations n attitude on him.. so he jus tolerate.. ok.. wanna get new phone.. wanna add on my dragon.. dun have e time.. dunno wad fone to buy.. but decide on 3220 finally.. I wan $$$$!!! Wanna buy clothes..tattoos..fone.. bags.. lotsa lotsa.. I wan $600!! Ok.. back 2 nyx.. aft I scold him.. he was like.. sorry lo.. in a sian sian way.. so I scold him further.. I just raise my voice totally.. n den he was like bth and said to mi “wads wrong with u?I have apologise already wad more do u wan? Attitude just runs in u,u r just attitude attitude attitude! Fark ur princess attitude!” n den he slam down e damn fone.. cant b bothered by him.. ok.. tat bitch act to mi again.. cant stand her.. gonna go study my geo.. tata~

ZhiWei.. take care of urself.Dun think so much.. I will b there whenever u need mi..

OMG!!! Tat Bitch...

2005-05-10T14:57:00.000+08:00

Ok.. I wanna talk about tat bitch.she is playin games with mi.. Her sarcastic remarks increase day by day.She is forcing mi to blow my top.. She is just a bitchy slut.All of my frenz hate her.She backstab mi but she acts so natural in front of mi,act as if nth happen n act as if she is so gd with mi.i I noe im at fault,I admit I do backstab her,sometimes I do feel guilty,n I stop criticizing her,I swear I stopped.But she nv,she just continue throwing her remarks on mi.Sometimes I do wanna revive this frenship,but it is of no avail.ok.. wadever.. but I wun be soft hearted by her anymore.. she deserve it.. my frenz noe it all.. I hate her,I really hate her.. she keeps wanna emphasize tat my frenz n mi think we r prettier den anyone else.. but pls gal.. I nv ever said tat.. if yr dun believe u can go look at my previous posting.. I only say I prettier den u.. is not I bhb or wad.. I noe my limits.. but I have to say this as u wanna act chio in front of mi n dress like a Christmas tree but think tat u r damn pretty… ok..u wanna compare.. so y din u talk to mi bout rich.. cuz u noe u will nv win mi.. pls my ass la.. dun try 2 play games with mi k.. and it is fact tat I have many frenx wad.. I am not boasting lo.. ok.. it may seems I have little frenz den u.. but my true frens r more den u.. u have just like… OMG!! Tat pathetic small number of true frenz standing by ur pathetic side .. y is this so? Is it cuz of ur character prob.. well~ I dunno,its not up 2 mi to judge.. ok.. so bitch,u think nobody noe ur true self? U wanna b e best in everyone’s eyes? But u will nv escape my eyes.. ALL OF My FRENZ noe bout ur tricks bitch! Ok.. u say I act as if I have got many frenz.. but it is a fact wad.. I nv boast.. for my true frens I have got yuki,mel,tortoise,zhaoz,hweimin,trina,my kor and there r many more I nv mention.. it is true lo.. its not im boasting or wad.. n u pls la.. wad u wanna do with ur fucking stead is ur prob.. dun pull mi into e water lo.. u wan everyone to think tat I buay song u got bf is it? Ok.. no doubt we were e once of frenz.. but I have 2 say.. this relationship of ours change,n it will nv b e same .. dun play with mi.. cuz u will nv win.. Bye BITCH!!

Saaddd..

2005-05-10T12:43:00.000+08:00

I cnt take it anymore.He is walking away frm mi,further n further away..he was once mine,at least I thought,at least for tat lil moment.. he walks away frm mi.. I am out of his life. He wants her..In his heart,she is perfect.. I cnt take it anymore.. I wanna tell him I love him.. but I cant.. he will nv noe if i din let him noe.. i wanna tell him but i cant.. wad should i do..

HUuuurrrrrrrrrr!!! I miss MEl n hweimin!!!

just a normal day

2005-05-10T10:30:00.000+08:00

Ytd suppose 2 meet yuki de,but she gotta have lunch with her mom celebrate mother’s day.so nv meet lo..all my relatives come my hse den one of my aunt bot a cake for mother’s day,den all e mothers stand at e cake there with my grandma n we children sing e mothers day song.. n all of us cried.. my couz cry e hardest de.. like water tap e tears keep flowing.. it was a very touchin n meaningful moment for my whole family hur..ok.. n den today was e maths n SS paper.. I tot today only have ss paper hur.. den I wear PE shirt to sch.. sssoooossoo xia suey uh..my frenz were like..”puay chin,y r u so gong” ok nvm.. n den when I receive my maths paper.. I was like.. going to faint.. I am nv good at maths.. I have no confidence at all..i just scribble a few ans den I went to slp le.. the paper was like 1 n half hr n I was like slp after 30mins? OMG.. anw.. I dunno how 2 do uh.. so off I go to slp lo.. ok.. den recess.. sat with tortoise n kiff,crap around with some lame jokes.. n den I told tortoise abt wad e bitch say 2 mi.. I was like.. “tortoise,she keep say mi leh,she keep bully mi uh,scold her scold her leh” den after I told tortoise wad e bitch said.. den tortoise said,*y she like tat de* buden I told tortoise not 2 say anything or scold her uh..this gal matter mar.. but tortoise promise mi if she too guo fen he will help mi scold her de.. thanks tortoise.. ok.. den tortoise say wanna return 2 class n he call mi follow him.. so I follow him 2 his class.. was playin around when we went up e stairs.. n den in tortoise class saw so many of my ex classmates.. crap along with them for a while den sit down with tortoise n kiff to talk.. tortoise was like keep talking to mi about her lo.. irritating uh..den I throw a bita attitude on tortoise.. sometimes he make mi angry without knowing uh.. ok.. den I needa go back class le.. den I call tortoise acc mi back 2 class,den he call kiff along.. 2 of my bestest fren pei mi go back class.. ok.. tomorrow is chem. Paper uh.. sian uh!! At nite mayb gonna meet nyx.. maybe go eat stingray uh.. delicious.. looking forward to nite timee!!

Fun day..

2005-05-07T15:22:00.000+08:00

Just nw went out with yuki n yenn.. but I meet yuki n rikku lst.. n den went to cine rocky master.. was like crap around for a while n den rikku de bf come le.. so yuki acc mi to wisma to buy clothes.. n den we just walk around.. just walk aimlessly.. n yuki bring mi to dunno wad hotel n create some kinda fun there.. was so funny uh.. we were waitin for yen arrival.. n den I told yuki bout my cruise happenings.. was so sian n we walk back to cine n look for rikku to get cigarette frm her n den went to I think cheers to smoke.. n den rikku follow us.. was walking for a while n den yen come le.. n den we went to rocky master again.. cuz yen wanna drink e fruit tea I think.. sit there for quite long n den went to walk again n went to e taxi stand to slack..there were like so many workers there n they were like keep looking at us,I told yuki they were looking at her nei n she insist they were looking at mine.. ok,wadever.. never mind.. n den we were like so bored n started singing,we were like singing so loudly n den ppl walk past keep looking at us.. n den rikku n her bf come den took cab home.. den I long bang yuki n yen home.. n den after tat nyx called mi n told mi to have supper with him.. I was like .. ok lo n went to e hawker to have stingray.. was delicious though.. ok.. n den I was like.. tomorrow exam uh.. gonna go study .. tata~

My Cruise!!

2005-05-07T14:01:00.000+08:00

Ok.. was back frm e cruise.. SuperStar Virgo.It was so damn fun lo.. I was like.. going with all of my dearest couz n aunts n uncle.. ok.. lst day was a blur.. it was like.. we reach there at abt eight smth.. n the dinner was like 9? Omg.. n den we were like rushin to our cabin n faster unpack our belongings n went down 2 the canteen to eat.. the food was like.. so delicious lo.. n den after I went to e deck with papa.. the sea breeze is nice.. but kinda scary.. cuz all dark dark mar.. n den I went to tour round e boat.. it was 13 floors high uh..n den I was like walking round n I lost my way..n den there was no reception there.. I was like.. so funny lo. So I was pretend nth happen n try 2 find my way out.. n manage it though.,. n I return to room n watch tv.. and there r my favourite shows.. was so happy eh.. watched a while n went to slp.. n den the 2nd day was a little better.. I was like finally noe my way a bit n go sing k with my couz b4 havin lunch.. the lunch was delicious also.. n den e staff there was so damn polite.. like them so much,.. n den I give them a $4 tips n they were like so happy.. ok.. actually I went to cruise lotsa times le.. have been to sun cruise,leisure world.. unlike some unknown bitch.. ok.. wadever.. but its my lst time to virgo.. fun there.. esp when m gg with my whole family.. n den there r many ang mohs there.. they was like.. keep looking at my dragon n was like.. starin at mi n ask mi how much is it.. so amuse by them.. but they were nice ppl though.. ok.. tomorrow gonna meet miko(nw changed to yuki) & rikku n yen.. gonna have a fun day with dem.. cheers!

So angry uh..

2005-05-04T13:53:00.000+08:00

Ok.. today was like just a normal day.. went to sch n blah blah blah.. sch life is all e same.. ytd tortoise make mi so so so angry uh.. I was like angry until my blood vessels wanna burst uh.. almost cried uh.. have not been so angry for quite a while le.. he was like.. keep talking to her n care for her lo.. was like.. everytime I msg him den he dun wanna reply mi.. n den everytime I missed call him he nv call mi back de.. hur! He so bad uh.. n den was like keep caring for her lo.. n den I was like complaining to him he nv care for mi den he will be like.. “no lo,puay chin,Iu r also very impt in my life uh” wad rubbish lo.. I was like keep shoutin n screamin my way into e fone,n he was all e while calmin mi down n coaxing mi..i just argue my way out with him n he was like so helpless..he was like tryin to calm down my temper.. n I was so damn angry lo.. he treat mi quite good though.. but sometimes kinda neglect over some *** lo.. anw.. I was so angry I just hang up e fone n he was like msg mi n say sorry to mi.. den I was like.. ok lo.. anw.. we were ok today le.. he like saw mi n talk to mi take it as nth happen n we r good again..tortoise was my best fren though.Forever!

blah blah blah..

2005-05-02T08:24:00.000+08:00

ok..nw at miko n rikku hse.. playin com.. their hse is so big le.. got so many pets also.. so xian mu uh.. their hse is like.. three storey high.. woo~ nv been to such a big hse b4.. ok.. someone isnt happy tat she's losing to mi.. i nv say i'm prettier den anybody else.. i just say i am prettier den u! cuz u keep thinking u r prettier den mi wad.. pls my ass la..i am richer den u wad.. cuz u everytime wanna act rich to mi also.. i'm not sayin i have thousands of allowance a day or wad.. i admit i dun have.. but i am richer den u lor.. ok.. dun talk abt rich.. later ppl think i boasting.. but y r u so act? at least i more natural den u lor.. u everytime wanna act.. uh.. act cute la.. act chio la.. n act wad.. OMG! act fair is it? dun wanna admit e things tat u dun have..ok.. its nt i act.. i really have many frenz wad.. u dun believe u call agnes or miko lor.. ok.. dun wanna say abt this bytch so much..hmmm.. nice hangin out with miko n rikku.. wanna hang out with my mel also.. so damn long nv see her le.. mayb gonna meet miko if i have money.. gonna buy clothes.. gonna go nw,tata everyone.. GOODBYE BITCH!!

29 April

2005-04-29T15:41:00.000+08:00

Today after sch go meet miko n rikku,buden rikku leave lst to meet her bf lo,n den mi n miko find a place 2 sit down talk lo.. n den we was like sitting there for like 1 hr plus just 2 take pics with our fone.. n den we were so bored and we walk to creasant to have mac lo.. n den miko smoke.. den I was like so boring keep talking rubbish to her.. n den my couz called,den go her hse.. miko like my couz dog so much uh.. very cute uh.. keep jumping here n there.. tml my couz gonna bring him 4 grooming le.. will b more handsome lo.. n tat after tat go nyx hse lo.. n nw I`m in his hse playin com lo.. ok.. I think tats all la.. tata~

*Sian uh..

2005-04-29T12:58:00.000+08:00

Today is e start of the mid year.. ok.. was so scare b4 e paper.. so damn scare.. it was like I only started studying e format this morning.. but fortunately e paper was quite easy n I somehow made it thru…n den it was like.. heng ah.. ok.. and den today gt e LRc lo.. and den e osman keep was for like 1 hr n 40 mins.. n den he was still so proud sayin tat he release us early lo.. he nv noe exam periods sumtym teacher half an hr den release le.. hur! But anyway.. when he call my name n I stand up.. he was like keep staring at mi in s very ‘xiong’ way loh.. I think maybe he bear grudges towards mi nahz.. siao wan leh him.. later maybe meetin nyx lo.. I think that’s all la.. tml update to say how it goes.. tata~

Bytch..

2005-04-28T11:35:00.000+08:00

today go see doc..gt sum kinda flu.. den I saw a gal hor.. wah.. her leg tattoo lizard leh.. so stylo leh.. but I dun like lizard.. I like scorpions dragons and phoenix.. as in for tattoos la.. m gonna add flowers to my dragon.. if nt go out let ppl beat man.. they tot I frm wad kind of gang.. whahaha..my couz hor.. siao wan leh.. we go tattoo together mar.. she put spider n I put dragon mar.. n she was keep telling mi later go out let ppl beat… I keep telling her wun wan la.. den in e end make mi scare also.. den got one tym more funny le.. mi n my couz go aljunied mrt mar.. we were goin to sing post.. den got this grp of boys saw my couz spider den they keep say “catch spider leh,catch spider leh” den mi n my couz was like.. wtf man~ ok..nvm.. I really cnt stand tat bitch man.. n I`m nt writing abt jasmine k.. for those bitches who like to spread rumours abt mi.. ok..back 2 e bitch.. she keeps wanna act innocent in front of mi leh.. sometimes when she beside mi I just cnt stand her n feel like giving her one punch leh.. but I nv la.. later I do tat hor.. I gone already.. I got case mar.. later I go jail man.. I tried my best to salvage our frenship la.. but she was like.. she nv care at all lor.. she just knows how 2 say wad I change le I change le.. change ur bloody mother la.. wad I change le.. to mi,I dun think tat u changed,I feel tat I have nv noe ur true self until last yr.. u were so superb in ur acting skills.. everytime she speaks.. she has pricks in her conversations de.. I dunno whether is only to mi or wad la.. I think only to mi only la.. aiya.. she jealous I better den her wad.. cuz her theory is like.. I fat den she slim mar.. omg! Its not slim,its skinny.. den she thinks ppl wanna see also see her mar.. where will look at mi.. so she jealous when ppl say I pretty den her nor.. ha.. even my couz hate her le.. my couz still wanna call her frenz 2 di siao her man.. whenever she go out.. she dress herself up as a Christmas tree.. n hell noe,sshe thinks she looks pretty..pls la.. haiz.. there r so many I can say bout her man.. she just thinks she is pretty,she is sexy,n tat she is so damn considerate to e ppl round her eh.. pls leh.. wah kao eh.. we were once frenz.. I dun mean 2 be so vulgar to my so call once frenz.. my frenz r my life,I even treat my frenz better den my stead.. but u r so damn horrible tat I have 2 say u lor.. u always think u have more frenz den i.. u always wanna mi 2 apologise whether or nt its my fault.. u think u r a princess.. wad a joke.. let mi tell u.. princess have a better personality den u.. ppl may say I`m a bitch.. ok lor.. I admit I`m a bitch.. I do backstab.. cuz u deserve it! She just likes 2 act rich in front mi.. nt in front of mi.. like she dun have much money but she wans to buy those ex ex de things.. like wanna ppl 2 see her as a rich gal can afford those things.. pls lor.. I richer den u.. ur parents r richer den mine but I am richer den u eh.. woots.. I am nt trying to booast.. I nt as rich as miko n rikku,but I am certainly richer den u! miko n rikku nv ever booast to mi,cuz we r best frenz,best frenz only help one another.. u r worst den them man.. I noe u longer leh.. hey idiot,still wanna act huh.. many ppl say u r bitter gourd lor.. is like.. ur face is so ku..n when we were frenz I was like.. telling u everything bout myself,but ur reaction was like.. eh uh.. and then u nv tell mi things bout urself de.. if ya clever u will noe I am writing bout u.. mayb cuz many ppl noe my temper is very fiery,including u,so u wan mi 2 fall into ur trap as in scold u lst rite? I wun b so stupid de lor.. I am better den u in everything.. u nv ever make a effort to make us frenz again.. this is e part tat saddens mi.. but nw I wun b sad bout u anymore.. my heart is dead.. frenship is like relationship,it takes two hands 2 clap..its no point one is giving n tryin hard n e other is like sitting there doin nth lor.. n u r like tat.. u everytime wanna act.. y cant u be urself.. even my couz say u act man.. pls my ass la,wad r u tryin to prove? U r trying to act siao ding dong when u r e serious serious type? Or tryin to blend in e situation? U r nt tat kind of siao siao person lor.. u dun have e cells la.. so dun try 2 act in front of mi.. ppl who act can nv escape frm my eyes.. I noe who’s genuine and who is act.. ask mi bout my class I can list put whole lots of acting ppl.. u think wad? U drama box ah? Pls la.. dun blame mi for being mean.. I am lidat de.. I have warn all ppl who I noe not to step on my tail.. I will nv let e matter off easily.. I certainly wun scold u in e face.. I wun fall into ur trap.. I noe ur intention is to make ppl think u r e angel n I am e devil.. as I mention in my previous posting.. I have more frenz lor.. I treat my frenz very gd de nor.. all my frenz feel it.. no need ask who.. u can just ask miko.. she knows it.. but y am I treatin u this way? Cuz u treat mi this way lst.. it all started when u buay song I have more attention den u…n then u started suaning mi in a ‘jian’ way.. u r just tryin 2 act in front of mi.. ok lor.. I admit I damn hiao lor.. so wad? When I hiao I dress up I still prettier den u leh.. when u dress up u look like a Christmas tree.. u think wad.. santa claus is coming to town ah.. wtf man~.. ok.. dun wanna say so much.. in fact I say a lot le.. tata~

Fantastic Day*

2005-04-28T11:26:00.000+08:00

Today is e last day of my sports day detention le.. and it is like.. so fantastic.. cuz of e assembly mar.. den I late arrive.. mr ong like 20 minutes den release le.. and den go eat noodles den go hm lo.. today assembly give out e prize for e 2.4 annual road run top 25 winners uh.. den my frenz is like got.. tortoise,ming fei,wei hao,tang tang.. n I cnt rmb le.. den I clap very loud for mingfei n tortoise eh.. haha..ok nvm.. and den today ms salina change our sitting arrangement to register number eh.. n then it was so damn hot lo.. jia jin sit bside mi n he was like.. keep screaming so hot lo.. I also cnt stand it man.. so hot le.. bth uh..anw we gonna move 2 new blk to have exams le.. exams comin uh.. so stress uh.. very scare leh..aiya.. whatever.. gonna study de loh.. and den today in class sms miko ask her whether this sat free nt.. gonna go out with her uh.. if I gt e money lo.. when miko play piano uh.. she is so damn attractive lo.. is like.. a angel lo.. really.. e picture is like so beautiful.. yr guys will agree with mi if yr see her play piano b4.. haiz.. miss e days when miko is still in sch leh.. we always have e time table in our hands n check for which lesson to skip... n den tortoise n Kelvin always crap along with mi n miko de.. n den mi n miko always go by e dustbin way.. n den take cab to sing post.. last yr was so fun uh.. Miss mel so much eh.. its like.. so long nv meet her le leh.. this mon suppose 2 meet her de eh.. but her mum haven give her money uh.. so cnt meet lo.. haiz.. she so loving with jin liang eh.. so xian mu her.. she is so xing fu eh.. and den e nyx la.. everytime call mi go his hse wan leh.. also dunno wad he wan.. he only noe how 2 everytime bring mi to geylang eat frog porridge.. if nt is katong laksa,go until e aunties there noe mi le.. everytime I go they will shout.. dragon gal come already.. so pai sei uh.. den e nyx still dun wan jio mi leh.. dunno waitin for wad.. he told mi he like mi also. But also dunno true not la.. wadever.. ok.. nyx call le..tata~

ho ho

2005-04-27T11:02:00.000+08:00

Ok..today was like..wooo~ so damn sian lor.. it is just a normal day.. the detention in buddist hall was like.. forever.. the osman la.. keep us till 3.40 uh.. and den today have 2 maths test.. I dunno how 2 do a single question argghhh..but in e end manage to do like.. 3 to 4 questions.. hmm..ok.. currently saving money for my angkongs lor.. gonna buy mascara,concealer,lip gloss,eye liner etc.. needa save money uh.. recently spend a lot eh.. n today recess I`m like.. m so hungry,I just ate bread lor.. n e zhao dong beside mi keep make mi luff.. n tortoise uh.. b4 recess he go borrow phone frm mi n sms! I nv heard of such a thing der.. he say his dad keep complaining he sms too much n he borrow frm mi.. find it kinda amusing but give it to him though.. he was my best fren mar.. wad to do.. ok.. exams coming.. gonna go study.. *blah.. nt study uh.. gonna go bath le.. ho ho..

a nice day

2005-04-26T12:30:00.000+08:00

Woo~ went out with miko n yen on sat to PS,watched infection,such a lame show uh.. meet miko at her hse there lst den we took train to PS.Omg! we took train eh.. cuz its like we everytime take cab.. but since it is so near so we might as well take train.. Den miko go recommend(I duno how 2 spell la) e base clothes to mi,she keep telling mi how nice it is,n den she bot one dat day,I choose fer her de,it was a nice shirt though.. n den we go buy tickets den go sit wait for yen,she is taking such a long time,our movie was like 4.40 n it is only like 2? We just slack arnd uh.. and den finally wait for yen arrival and we go watch infection,was scare by e movie so many times but finally our conclusion was e movie was not nice at all.. n den we waited for rikku,she meet us after a while and she was like keep complaining she was hungry.So we acc her go long john she bot dunno wad meal eh and we went to rocky master to eat.. I order a mixed fruit juice n chicken bolognise n yen order e same drink n black pepper chicken.. when her black pepper chicken arrive,mi n miko tasted e chicken.. it was like… aarrrghh. It was cold,n yen was like still eating it so happily,n she tot it was suppose 2 b cold! Mi n miko was so disgusted by e chicken eh.. n yen told e person den e person in charge give us a new one n she give us a choco mousse for free! N it was so damn bloody nice..n tat miko n rikku crap along using my cam phone.. they were like taking pics n luffing so loudly.. rikku was luffing so loudly eh.. in e end I dunno whether they took a picture they were satisfied nt.. but it was reali a fun nite out with dem.. gonna meet her this sat if she can make it n if I have money.. whhooos

Me & jasmine

2005-04-25T09:44:00.001+08:00

Hmmm.. nw frenz with jasmine le,the feeling is like kinda weird? It will sure be weird de la,its like we were quarreling e hell out of everything n we were frenz nw.. but I will try my best to maintain this frenship eh..n den went out with jasmine to buy ingredients for her F & n,shop so long le,n she noe so much things,she noes how 2 cook this n tat,n it was like,I dun even noe anything.. I only noe how 2 cook instant noodles only.. I think even a guy noe more den mi eh.. so pai sei uh. I think wy is right to choose her eh.. she can cook delicious things for him mar.. and tat I keep worryin her money is not enuff to pay for e things she buy.. cuz she was like throw everything inside e cart n I keep helping her count e amount.. I so worried for her eh.. ok.. den after tat we bid goodbye den go hm le.. I wanna go walk walk with her de.. but she needa go hm nahz.. she ws like carryin so much things eh.. nw I going out ler.. goin meet nyx.. dunno wad we gonna do le.. haiz..

Jus a nOrmal Day*

2005-04-16T06:30:00.000+08:00

Hmm,just came back frm sch,at amanda hse playin com lor,cuz com spoil mar.Spoil very long le leh,nv go repair le,need money also.. Hmph.. today was a day with mixed feelings la,ytd msg him den he nv reply mi leh,mayb is cuz of her la,bt nvm,i have no feelings for him le.finally! But if he dun wanna be frenz with mi still cuz of his gf,den i have got nth 2 say la.Today suppose 2 go out with tif n tiz de,but ytd my mum dun wan give mi money,so cnt go out with them,sorry hor moi twinnies! Tif n Tiz is really my best best fren le,they help mi in everything de,n i can find my true self when m with e two of dem.They r such a crackpot,my kia xin guo,everytime talk so much crap in front of mi de,but still,i enjoy e days i have with dem.They r e ones den teach mi lots of things in life.Tif will always teach mi abt how guys behave,how guys feel..etc etc.. She is always there 2 help mi in everything.She is e one who can console mi till m not so sad abt him... all in all,she is my greatest fren. Hmm,tortoise,david,kiff,zhaoz,they all,i reali miss den leh,i so enjoy e days i spend with dem last yr.Kiff will always b there 2 talk cock with mi,tortoise is e one who stand by mi n help mi no matter wad.He everytime zui ying xin luan wan la,he everytime say dun give a damn abt mi,but i noe he care abt mi la,whahaha,hor tortoise? N zhaoz leh,he will everytime take a chair n sit bside n begin 2 crap along with mi,we talk frm ai hua 2 pregnant to everything under e sun.He is my bestest fren also.As for david leh,he is i think 3 or 4 yrs older den mi ba,i talk to him in class occasionally,but whenever we started talking,we will talk n talk untill its like no end to everything,n he always tell mi,''puaychin,gt anybody bully u tell mi hor,i help u beat tat person'' see,i got so many buddies by my side..wahaha,no la,but i really treasure e frenship i have with themm..all my frenz.. hmm,den ytd go nyx de hse,den play com watch vcd,den blah blah blah,up 2 u all to imagine la,[Er tOng bu Yi ] la.. He keep call mi go report police,cuz of e rhys la,he go n punch mi leh,siao wan.. cuz we quareel mar,den i say u drae u beat mi la,den he reali beat mi..so pain leh.. Ccb! he no balls la,he not guy man,how can like tat hit a gal wan.. still got wad huh.. oh.. him lor.. aiya,sometimes i really miss him noe,miss e days i have with him,miss e days he promise to be with mi forever.BUt actually thinking back,i should b contented le,at least in a certain period of his life,he realli do love mi,but it is a pity tat our fate only lasted for like.. so short lor.. but anw,everythings over le,i will give him my blessing de.. n my blessings 2 all my frenz, u all r e most impt gem i`ve found in this lifetime.Love every single one of u!

Haiz..

2005-04-15T12:50:00.000+08:00

Hmm,see ppl de blog so nice hor,so nice leh,bt I cn nv decorate e way I wan la.Cuz I duno how to anyway.Its ok la.. Today is just a normal lor..detention & detention & detention! Haiz,I finally understand smth,ppl do change & feelings do fade.There frenz of mine whom is nt e some as e day when I noe them.Rhys,he treat mi like heaven lots when we were 2gether,he gave in to mi,he encourage mi,he console mi,he give mi all e support I need.He ever promise mi tat he will try his best to make mi e happiest gal in e world.He told mi tat he will let mi go if I still love waiyi.Happiest?Which gal dun wanna be e happiest.But I noe he will nv b e source of my happiness.My feelings for him just isn’t there.He could tell mi a zillion times how much he love mi,how much he love mi,bt all this just dun get into my head.As long as there is love,there will b hurt.It will always b together.In my world,I only love just this 1 person.He is e only person tat I wanna give my hrt to.He is e one I love e most.And I noe tat to let him b happy,I have to let him go.I love him,but he love her.I dun wanna continue this game anymore,I`m tired.Because of e relationship between e 3 of us,I have to shoulder all those blame tat is nt even my fault.It is really nt mi.But nobody believe mi.Nobody did.Is it because I`m always e tough one swearing n scolding,I dun understand they dun believe mi,including him.I may b smiling all e times,all my frenz say so,but deep down inside,I have so many troubles I wanna get rid of.I have my frenz,my family,all my probs,all these in my life is nt going smoothly.I totally dunno where am I heading.I rmb tat on e day wy break with mi,I am shattered.I promise myself not to got involved with anyone again.For those who r spreading rumours abt mi since e day I stead with him till e reason we break.I will get u all get e whole picture nw.I have nth to hide.I nv do anything with him tat is wrong.I nv tried 2 break up him n jasmine.He knows it.Frm e day e sch noe I stead with him,all kinds of rumours is in e air.There were who say I am not good enuff for him,there were some who say he is just using mi,there were some who say he dun love mi at all.But wad really happens mi n him,nobody knows.Nobody fully understand our feelings towards each other,so wad right have u all got to speak ill of us? When we were together,e whole world says I love him a lot,they say I love him more den he love mi.And I will admit it,I really do love him,a lot.AT e period of time when we were together,he gave in to mi,he dote on mi,he tell mi all e things tat I needed to hear.He told mi how much he love mi n how much he will nv give mi up like he did last time.However,promises r meant 2 b broken.In e end,he abandon mi,mayb this is e ending most ppl wanna see.I admit tat I still do love him a lot after we break.But time heal all wound,at e moment nw,I have let him go,I have given up,I understand y he brk with mi n I dun blame him anymore,I wun ask y again.I accepted e fact we r not meant to be,n I give him my blessings.But y r there so many ppl sayin I`m tryin to brk him n jasmine up? I know for myself clearly tat even if he brk with jasmine,he might nt be with mi.We r still frenz,purely frenz.I can guarantee this to e whole world,tat I dun have anything 2 do with him anymore,there r no longer love or hatred between us anymore.Friends.Frm pri sch till nw,I have many frenz,but obviously,not everyone is true.Up till e moment nw,my true frenz r,tortoise peiyi mel zhaoz en rui hwei min n tats all.i noe in sch,many ppl have been backstabbing mi,they have been sayin tat I flirt around with guys.But this is all our frenship accumulated over e yrs we have spend in our classroom,bbqs,chalet..etc.. n a strong bond is build. I cherish all my frenz n I noe they treat mi genuinely with their hrt..

Starry Nite

2005-04-14T11:41:00.000+08:00

Hmmm.. today just sign up a new account with tif & tiz.And i am so happy sort out all things with him.We promise each other tat we will be frenx no matter wad happen between mi n his stead,At least he understand e situation lor. Going on cruise on 4-6 may,virgo.SO excited le,going with my whole family,all my relatives.Curretly saving money for ang kongs,wallet & disc man.My class gt lots of thiefs le,everytime steal things.Tml mayb gonna meet nyx in e nite.. Will telll him abt e incident between mi n rhys de,tat idiot go beat punch mi,very pain le.. think tats all la.. will update next time i online..

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Msg frm the bitch!!

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yo yo yo!!!

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haiz..

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the fucking post..

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haiz..

at mel hse..

ho ho ho..

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Counsellin..

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Slackin at hm..

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Uploaded these Pics.. hope yr like it..

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meeting mel..

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Fun day..

My Cruise!!

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29 April

*Sian uh..

Bytch..

Fantastic Day*

ho ho

a nice day

Me & jasmine

Jus a nOrmal Day*

Haiz..

Starry Nite

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